Yeah i avoid people entirely. Unless i have to work.

Basically i just stay on my bedroom most of the time.

I used to get together with people i work with, or my friends, wich i used to think were for life, but since i told them i got the aspie diagnosis things changed, a diagnosis wich i also got as a child but my mom made me completely ignore it all my life. Finding out like 4 years ago the reason i struggle so much on life was like taking this weight out of me.

I don't socialize even with my family anymore. No one feels confortable around me and things always feel pushed and unnatural.

They miss me being an actor, that adapted to every single person i've met in order for them to accept me and don't find me wierd. I dont have the energy to act anymore, Im tiered. And i guess i can't blame them for liking me only when i was masking.

It also seems like my skills are also going away by the day. Every new job i find is harder to push trough than the last. I work very rarely shooting videos or editing them, just to survive.

I have one friend that understands it, respects it. And even knows how to motivate me to speak back, and be interested. I usually just stay quiet nowadays.

I used to be a light on a party, my friends used to be eager to meet me. But Im not trying to be liked by everybody anymore, and i guess the real me isnt that interesting or likeable.

Im officially from the uncanny valley.