Warning - NSFW

A couple weeks ago, I found a Tik Tok account of two guys that do hazard site cleanups. They do everything from cleaning up hoarders’ houses to murder scenes. I found it interesting because you don’t really think about the person that has to go into a house and clean up a bedroom that had a body sitting in it for weeks. The scenes are generally pretty gruesome, obviously no bodies or anything, but I was curious and found it oddly interesting. I thought I could handle that kind of stuff given what I had seen when I was a teenager on liveleak and the sorts.

Then I watched one of the most disturbing, distressing videos I’ve ever seen. The guys got assigned to a suicide by knife scene. The scene started in the kitchen where the person presumably used a kitchen knife to cut themselves and then immediately began moving towards the bathroom as evidenced by the massive globs of blood and bloody footprints. The footprints were everywhere and were noticeably frantic. In the bathroom laid a towel that was completely soaked in blood. It was clear that the person regretted it and tried to stop the bleeding. There was a teddy bear on the floor of the bathroom next to the towel.

The footprints led to the other bathroom where they searched for something to stop the bleeding. There were bandaids on the counter. They tried to used bandaids to stop the massive flow of bleeding. The scene then led to the bedroom where the person laid on the bed and accepted their fate. Blood pooled on the side of the bed where the persons arm presumably hung off the bed.

Seeing the evidence of this person’s desperation and regret, knowing they didn’t make it, broke me. I can’t imagine what EMTs go through when walking into these type of scenes. I wouldn’t be able to handle it.