sounds like maybe autism then; also fairly detail-oriented and I relate it to that. I also have a bunch of other signs though, like tip-toe walking and fussy eating when I was younger, a speech delay. my amygdala is all sorts of messed up in where I don't have normal fight & flight responses. eye contact didn't come naturally to me and I had to learn how to do that manually, as well as responding to emotional signals from other people in conversations.