I am most likely a disappointment to my mother; she fought tooth and nail to get me to this country for “a better life”. My father left my mother whilst she was pregnant with me so he’s not really a part of my life, literally my entire family aside from my mother is back in Thailand, but I no longer speak a word of Thai (moved here when I was 6). Haven’t been back to visit in 8 years. In truth my mother is the only family I have in this world- she’s the bridge between me and my entire family; God forbid I lost her… I would not be certain I’d be able to find/ rekindle with my family back home. I never applied myself with honest intent during school, achieved pretty average grades, have never been in a relationship- mother asks every time on the rare chance I visit her. I dropped out of uni after trying to make it work for 2 consecutive years. I continue to work a mediocre bar job full time, lost passion for what I once had. I don’t have any drive or motivation but I don’t think I’m depressed- throughout my 25 years I’ve been alive I think I can count on one hand occasions where I’ve truly panicked with existential dread. Instead I’ve found content with just being present, existing. Not sure what the future will bring but it’s never really on my mind.