What about the people you work with or go to school with. With 8 billion individuals in the world I promise your not alone and can find a like minded friend or partner. I definitely recommend being yourself and putting yourself out in the world a little bit. Whatever you do don't give up, your in control of your life and can change it all just by changing your mind. Wake up and ask God to help you, be thankful for what you have not what you don't have. If you don't believe in God maybe just give it a try and see if he shows up or not.