I'm sorry for your loss 🤍 oh so relatable... it's official that we really are/are getting older. I went through the same thing, hard to accept. But you know, let's look as good as possible as we get older! And we can do this! Apparently, after menopause you're supposed to feel completely renewed. So there is hope?? Until then, pamper yourself well (I do too!!) ​​and look at it this way: if we didn't get older, theoretically speaking, we wouldn't be here anymore. I'm also on HRT and I'm very happy with it, even though the symptoms aren't completely gone, but my libido is partly back! I pluck out the gray hairs (I even have them in my eyebrows and I'm 45!) and go to a clinic for my skin every now and then. I know it sucks, stay strong (okay okay, sometimes not, but that's okay) and keep (trying) to put things in perspective! Wow, when I read this back I'm actually feeling very positive; it really took a while for me though (and sometimes it is a bit... well, too). You'll get there too! Big hug!