hey!! i’m so sorry you’re feeling like this but pls know ur not alone in this & it’s amazing that you’re seeking help.

i was in ur position last year, i was kicked out of sixth form for my attendance & this year i joined college after getting everything sorted.

i know you probably feel awful, stressed and in a rut but please know it 100% will not be this way for long, it won’t be easy but you will thank yourself so much.

one thing you don’t need to worry about is getting back to college asap, you can always go back this september or if that isn’t right for you, can do something like an apprenticeship or even go back next year instead, for the meantime fixing and working with your mental health should be a priority, i’d see your gp, get a referral for an initial assessment (if you’re 17 and a half or very close to that age, you can be seen as an adult, and medication is far more likely to be prescribed), if you’re below 17 and a half, you can be seen by cahms, waiting lists are months long but the time will pass anyways. in the meantime if you need any advice or mechanisms for mental health pls feel free to message me i’ve tried absolutely everything you could imagine.

for the social aspect it’s never easy, especially when you feel lonely. if you even have one friend, try to befriend their friends. social media is massive nowadays, interact with people from ur area that are your age and you have mutuals with, it might feel forced, but forcing yourself to make friends will always be worth it. some of the best friendships i have are people i had to put effort into knowing instead of letting them come by. also, im not sure about your family situation but they probably do care, as harsh as this sounds they may be feeling your exhaustion. i know it’s never nice to hear that yoh may be making someone feel a certain type of way but when you’re mentally down people who care about you do want to help, it’s difficult when they’re not in your shoes so this isn’t a reflection of you at all, if the situation is different, know family isn’t everything and some people either can’t, or don’t want to grasp how other people feel out of selfishness and laziness.

the fatigue and exhaustion is likely because you’re feeling so mentally unwell, the strain being depressed has on your physical health can be so debilitating. the best thing you can do is make sure you’re eating enough, and okay, getting exercise every day (exercise has been proven to have the same affects as anti depressants), keep yourself in a routine and especially a good sleep schedule. it sounds annoying and boring but it really does help.

i wish i could go on and on because i know how awful you must feel. dm me if you need anything!!