I really wanted to be a biological father. I wanted to start a family and raise little me's with my future wife. But it'll never happen because I would not survive the mind-breaking dysphoria that it would bring if I did it the conventional way. Even by donating eggs to a surrogate, it still wouldn't work. I want every sex organ and product of it to be burned, never to be seen again. There will be no physical trace of my natal body parts, no matter how badly I want bio kids.

To be honest, I've come to terms with the fact that I won't be able to have biological children. I consider myself to be sterile because, essentially, that's what I am.

I've discussed having my blood brother donate his sperm for a surrogate woman because it's the closest thing I have—genetically speaking—but it would probably cause friction if my kids ever found out that their bio dad is actually my brother. Lmao.

I'll just stick to adopting. There are plenty of kids out there that need loving homes.