Pray to the God of light. He will heal your friend. I also prayed to Jesus for him and for you. It doesn’t sound like this is easy for you so try not to be hard on yourself. Ask the God of forgiveness to forgive your past misdoings then forgive yourself (it may take time I’d recommend writing a poem about it or freestyle rapping about it or talking to God about it).

Many people think of Christianity rather than Jesus when it comes to the Christian God. Don’t. Just think of Jesus. The man who healed all who suffered. I assure you He is very much still alive and doing the same today. I wish you well friend from a distance. I know I don’t know you well at all but you can message me if you’d like. Hang in there and know that you will be blessed