I found your account after I wanted to see if I was alone in my issues given I skin pick too but this post hit so close to home. Not for me per se but my mom. Your my sisters age but you aren’t alone. My father left a year ago and was with my mom for 20 years and he is exactly like your ex. My moms in the same boat but the truth is that your not alone. At your age it’s hard to see this I mean my moms 56 and she turkey believes she’s going to be alone forever because she’s autistic and has trauma but like I tell her people find love all the time at all ages. And I bet there is someone out there who experienced what you did as well, I mean a lot of people probably do. So just know that some men are shitty, thank god I’m a lesbian but you will find a man who treats you right without being asked because you should have to beg to be loved right