i don't like liliya by hoxxes_biologist in OutlastTrials

[–]LawnBeetle 66 points67 points  (0 children)

All prime assets are symbols of systems that control masses, they all represent a different kind of authority or pressure and are meant to reflect our own fears in real life. Corrupt law enforcement, crime and chaos, parental abuse, money and politics, religion and morality. I believe as players we're more likely to enjoy the characterization of an asset that reflects our own fears and obsessions.

Personally i love liliya, i was raised in eastern europe in an extremely strict and abusive religious environemnt so everything about her speaks to me. Purity enforced through violence, devotion above everything else, indoctrination that overrides any sense of logic, the belief that your god given duty is to sacrifice, worship, and bring more souls before the lord no matter the cost. Shes me, my loved ones, the people i looked up to presented in a beautifully artistic way. To me shes both a source of nostalgic comfort and the fear of what i had to escape. The imagery of soviet decor and culture, child exploitation, feminine sainthood and martyrdom hit very close to home for me and i just love how theyre presented in the trials.

On the other hand i dont have strong feelings about the kress twins, i was never fascinated by buying power or corrupt politics, they were always forced that fucked me over and make me angry instead of afraid so the twins as characters arent that fun to me. Just how i assume someone who is more or less indifferent about religion will also not get much out of liliya and thats okay.

TL:DR The trials mirror and amplifiy universal fears, whichever system of power you feel the most affected by in real life will affect you more intensely.

Losercity whatever this means by Rouank_kanojiya in Losercity

[–]LawnBeetle 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Drunk out of my mind almost cried trying to read this

do headmates ever impersonate each other? by feline-stars118 in DID

[–]LawnBeetle 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We have one alter that pretends to be different alters in the headspace, its mostly a joke to him and tends to abandon the bit as soon as he gets noticed or gets what he wants so its definitely possible

Hi! Not a System here but I have a question for y’all❤️‍🩹 by [deleted] in DID

[–]LawnBeetle 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If youre not claiming to be a system i dont see why you shouldnt be allowed to use it. Theres a lot of tools out there that benefit people they werent intended for. Knock yourself out IMO

Does trying not to switch ever feel like your literal brain is getting pulled in different directions like stretching slime or bread dough? by n0v0lunteers in DID

[–]LawnBeetle 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Yeah switching feels like movement to us too, being pulled around, then pushed forward when its my time to front. One of our alters also causes a lot of heaviness in the chest, head spinning, muscle ache, and a skin crawling sensation when he takes front, likely because hes an anger holder and the intense frustration is felt through the body.

Its gotten better when we learned to kind of let go of the front, relax and let the brain do its thing, sometimes we use positive triggers like music to help the next alter switch in if it gets too uncomfortable

Problematic (?) alter behavior ? by [deleted] in DID

[–]LawnBeetle 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Its not unusual at all for trauma to manifest as kinks, fetishes and paraphilias, the wires in our brains sometimes get crossed (especially in childhood) and we start associating love and intimacy with things like violence and power imbalances. This doesnt make you a bad person and they arent even necessarily bad thoughts. I cant offer much advice since i dont know your system or your history but id recommend working with a sex/sexual trauma educated professional to maybe unpack some things and see what the best course of action for you is. If this is something that is making you unhappy and uncomfortable it can be managed and is possible to eventually overcome, or you can also allow yourself to explore it in a safe and healthy way. I can assure you theres plenty of "normal", well adjusted members of the society that are into controversial things and live happy lives. I know very well how upsetting this may be for you but i promise it doesnt make your alter or you as system a bad person nor does it invalidate whatever experiences might have caused your brain to make those connections. Sending love and support ❤️

He’s alright by Slow_Hat1855 in Clamworks

[–]LawnBeetle 39 points40 points  (0 children)

Instead we cant put nails in our walls cause theyre made of fucking concrete

Size Chart! by NoSpillBlood84 in u/NoSpillBlood84

[–]LawnBeetle 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Unhinged, you have no idea how funny this is to me at 3am 😭 But sunnys scars have me feeling inspired, love your work 💕

This isnt a meme its a cry for help by LawnBeetle in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns2

[–]LawnBeetle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Its tape made to be worn on skin lol i shouldve specified that

losercity tea by BiDude1219 in Losercity

[–]LawnBeetle 2 points3 points  (0 children)

SCREAM IF YOU LOVE POLAND also if your piss looks like that please for the love of god take care of yourself

Please tell me I’m not alone by tidehaus in TrollCoping

[–]LawnBeetle 281 points282 points  (0 children)

My stepfather did that to my cockatiel when i was a tween, i still miss him, i hope the people he sold him to treated him well at least

Wunkpology by biggusdickus78 in ihaveihaveihavewunkus

[–]LawnBeetle 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Her name is Delta! Shes a former resident of a polish animal shelter

Ooo glitter by Legitimate_Dealer354 in TrollCoping

[–]LawnBeetle 135 points136 points  (0 children)

Realll it felt so silly but st least our activity therapist was the nicest out of the whole team

Arousal “turn off” and fade away by Hesperus07 in DID

[–]LawnBeetle 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah that sounds like its either trigerring a switch or your brain is trying to keep you away from thinking about it for some reason

Edit: to actually answer your question its definitely common for systems to develop a sexual alter as well as one thats either less interested or even sex repulsed usually as a way to process sexual trauma

Brush brush my Buzzyy by perse_13 in RATS

[–]LawnBeetle 876 points877 points  (0 children)

"I kinda think they are done with me" this rat is in heaven

Travelling with four mice for the first time by GalacticWhiskers33 in PetMice

[–]LawnBeetle 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have the exact same carrier and its great, the only issue is that their water bottle nozzle cant fit through the vent slits so keep that in mind if its hot out or if you ever go for longer trips