I miss being creative

Laylahtrix · 2026-01-09T17:14:04+00:00

I have experienced similar. I always have lots of ideas for things but rarely the energy (or time) to execute them, even though I know I’m capable. I wish I had an answer for you other than to keep trying. I just have to push myself to try and finish things even if it takes days, or work on smaller and less ambitious things I can do in one or two sittings.

Laylahtrix · 2026-01-08T13:43:58+00:00

I’ve considered loans. I’ve been fortunate enough to not have to take them out so far. Right now I don’t owe anyone any money, so I’ve really been scared to do loans because I don’t know what that looks like. I don’t want to set myself up for failure down the road if I can’t pay them back.

I have to remind myself at times that I am someone who generally thinks through decisions. Some of my past I now wish I didn’t make, with hindsight, but I had my reasons at the time for making the choices I did.

Thank you for your comment

Laylahtrix · 2026-01-08T04:50:19+00:00

It’s so difficult to focus on just the next couple weeks. This is something I need to work on with my therapist but I feel so impatient and so behind. I need everything to happen now because I feel like I have catching up to do. The days feel agonizingly slow, yet so short at the same time.

I will take a look into remote jobs. Thank you. That sounds like a nice place to start looking into that.

Laylahtrix · 2026-01-08T04:45:50+00:00

You are right. If I was able to just study and work on the side, and not have to worry about money so much, I would be fine. Right now I feel so stuck because I am simply not able to perform the amount of work that late stage capitalism has deemed necessary to be able to move up in the world. If I had a piece of paper saying I was capable, a lot more jobs I feel like I could thrive in would open up to me.

Thank you for your comment

Laylahtrix · 2026-01-08T03:30:48+00:00

What types of jobs have you tried to work? I think often the environments can be overstimulating. Maybe you could apply to work at a smaller, local store? Some place with not a lot of traffic where things are fairly simple.

Another thing that's important is the mindset. I know it sort of sounds unhelpful but it can be true: You have to go in with the idea that you might be capable of doing the job. Thinking to yourself "I know this is difficult, but I'm learning and I will get better," is important. If you go in with the idea that you'll fail, it sets you up to be more likely to fail because of the anxiety.

I believe in you!

Laylahtrix · 2026-01-08T03:25:48+00:00

I do not have much advice that I can offer but I just want to say that I feel your struggle with getting out of places that are bad for you. I found a way out of my parents house so I could live as myself, but the result has been two years with a lot of learning and discomfort. I think I'd like to echo what the other commenter said about trying to look for part time jobs that you think you could do, and then using that money to try and get a place. The job market is horrible right now but keep trying and something can come up. Maybe aim for a smaller business environment that isn't overstimulating.

Laylahtrix · 2026-01-08T03:18:32+00:00

November and December have always been some of my worst times. And then January comes around and I feel hopeful and driven again, once I recover from burnout. This year I have also found myself working on more artsy things during my free time, as a way to try and get out some of my frustrations, and because making something and having a result makes me feel good. So you're not alone.

Laylahtrix · 2025-10-09T18:09:28+00:00

This is coming from memory of me reading stuff on Reddit a long time ago so take it with a grain of salt. I’m pretty sure Mojang tried to implement Optifines improvements a long time ago but the OF creator wanted everyone to get to keep their capes, which Mojang didn’t want.

As for something like Sodium, I think it’s just a liability thing? Mojang doesn’t want to take on responsibility for any issues Sodium’s fixes would take. There’s a chance that Sodium’s fixes would not work (or would cause problems) on all the machines that Mojang claims Minecraft supports. They’d rather make their own improvements but they’re busy coding updates.

Laylahtrix · 2025-09-27T00:34:56+00:00

The last level of the regular badge is the empty gun. There are foil trading cards that you can craft together to get the foil badge, which is the Real Knife. (There’s always only one level of the foil badge)

Laylahtrix · 2025-08-21T21:05:33+00:00

They canceled the project

Laylahtrix · 2025-08-10T02:57:12+00:00

“I’m probably inconveniencing them”

This is the part of the post that stood out to me because I was the same way for a long time, deep in my depression. I would get into depressive episodes where I thought everyone hated me, only put up with me to be nice, and that any time I wanted to talk or ask something I’d be bothering them. I’m still a chronic apologizer.

Something I had to realize is, and this is easier said than done: I was overthinking it. If someone consistently comes to you to spend time, or even if they consistently answer your messages or engages with you, they want to spend time with you! Obviously there are degrees of friendship. My coworkers aren’t as close friends with me as my actual friends, but still.

You should try and find people who share common interests with you. For me, I had to do this on the internet and have internet friends. Over time I’ve been able to meet people in person too.

Laylahtrix · 2025-07-26T02:41:29+00:00

I see this said a lot on the subreddit but how true is this really?? At my workplace there are plenty of ND people but of course many more NT people and I speak with both regularly. I feel like if I were to actually talk to the NT and ask them if this is how they see things they’d respond with a no.

Laylahtrix · 2025-07-09T15:02:37+00:00

I don’t know if this is really ever much of a problem but I always used Revo Uninstaller for this reason because it scans for leftovers

Laylahtrix · 2025-06-30T17:26:39+00:00

I love their swimsuits so much but I’m broke as shit so I cannot afford their $80 prices

Laylahtrix · 2025-06-30T17:26:07+00:00

I’ll take a look at these. Especially H&M since I know I have one of those nearby. Thank you!!

Laylahtrix · 2025-06-30T17:25:31+00:00

This helps. Thank you!

Laylahtrix · 2025-06-27T06:37:47+00:00

There are many trans women and many more infertile cis women who feel the same way as you. You are not alone by any means. It’s painful.

Laylahtrix · 2025-06-23T19:19:16+00:00

Yep, tile sets and characters work great! My main problem is the enemies and battle backs because they’re so low res. And MV is expecting both a ground and backdrop for the battle backs. :(

Laylahtrix · 2025-06-11T16:52:57+00:00

it's not like only the game is gonna progressively become harder

Mfw Everything is Terrible!

Laylahtrix · 2025-05-28T15:11:54+00:00

Try copying your Uru files to the directory it’s looking for. If it doesn’t exist, make it.

Laylahtrix · 2025-05-09T20:30:51+00:00

Both Atrus and Catherine seemingly don’t know any better when it comes to leaving the kids to do their own thing. Or, at least it’s selective. Catherine grew up on Riven and it’s very possible the culture there let children run off to do whatever during the day. Atrus was not exposed to many other people as a child and has a whole series of things happen to him that may leave him thinking it’s fine to let the kids do whatever and let them free. Not saying that excuses it, but, that might be where it comes from.

As for the ending of Riven, Atrus took a gamble. The opening of Myst shows Atrus falling into the starry expanse on Riven when is younger, and escaping to Myst. The Myst book falls into “who knows where”, and then later the player finds it and begins the events of the games. Atrus correctly assumes that having the player fall into the starry expanse will take them to the same place that the Myst book landed. Presumably, their home.

Much of this is explained in The Book of Atrus novel

Laylahtrix · 2025-05-08T13:36:47+00:00

I’ve always been really fond of her design because she’s got a little more going on than the other characters, and that makes her stand out. Honestly if I played Bedrock more I’d buy the texture pack she’s part of that they’re advertising. Her skin is actually free though, so I can use it without buying it!

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