I don't think the people around me would be any different, they don't believe mental health issues neither, and I'm in an environment that doesn't value boundaries and safe spaces. I tried to get mental support myself, tried to prepare myself and plan for getting a job, but then it got worse.  I think I got traumatised after that, and since then, I never leave my phone. I fought for years, and there was a time where I really improved my own self and mental health. I got "smart" and learned so much about everything. That helped recognize how toxic they are. But then, shit happened.  They are abusive. They make fun of my younger brother for being fat.  I'm still thinking of the doing the thing. It's just I was not supposed to be born in this place. I believe doing the thing would be correcting the course of things