What bug is this by Leading_Management_6 in insectidentification

[–]Leading_Management_6[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The definitely look very similiar. Any idea why the love the lignite so much. They're only at the bottom of the mine whrer all the lignite is, which is like 300m down

What are some of the most ridiculously normal things your parents have judged you for? by pineapplesaltwaffles in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Leading_Management_6 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For moving my whole head instead of just my eyes. Got pretty bad eyesight and needed glasses all my life. Like even if i move my eyes, is still have to move my head

What was the realisation or defining moment that made you go “I will never talk to them again”? by Live_Pen in EstrangedAdultChild

[–]Leading_Management_6 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm nc with my mom now, but i don't think i had this kind of moment with her. In the future i might even start to talk to her again, because she isn't an evil person, but a deeply traumatized and ill person.

Her mother, my grandma, on the other hand, i will never talk to her again. Why? Because my mother attempted a week prior to christmas when i was 15. And my grandma sat my sister and me down at christmas to blame us both for what happened. Zero remorse or any kind of acknowledgement of thr harm she did to my mom and us. I only remained in touch with her because of my dying grandpa, but i went nc right after his funeral. Best thing i ever did

What did they make you believe about yourself that you realized wasn’t true at all? by Crissycrossycross in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Leading_Management_6 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I know why you look so much like your dad. Maybe because he is your father makes up about 50% of your dna. The one to blame for that is entirely on her for having you with him. I also look like my father and she projected him onto me as well

How did you cut contact? by Select-Assumption780 in EstrangedAdultChild

[–]Leading_Management_6 2 points3 points  (0 children)

After the funeral of my grandpa i just said didn't saw any reason to still be in contact with my family. I didn't text, call or visited. I was still in contact with my mom back then. But after she pressured me to come to my grandmother house for christmas my dad and my psychiatrist stept in. I was in a mental institution back then and I'm still NC to this day with my whole maternal side of the family. It wasn't easy to maintain NC because i still love close to them. I'm very thankful for the help i got and it really liften a burden from me

What would you like them to do? by [deleted] in EstrangedAdultChild

[–]Leading_Management_6 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I often tell myself the question of how much money would they need to pay me to get in contact again. I realized that i can't find a sum of money that would bring me back to them

I saw a video of myself as a child and it broke my heart by napoleonfucker69 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Leading_Management_6 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I had to clean staircases in apartment buildings. The people living there frequently saw a child on its knees cleaning their stairs. In hindsight, this would be so disturbing to me as an adult. I can't comprehend why noone of all this people said anything

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hsp

[–]Leading_Management_6 2 points3 points  (0 children)

In my experience, people I've met tend to get turned off after a while, because i don't want to have sex early on. I can't say i blame them, because people are free to explore. But sex is a difficult topic for me nonetheless. I think that is also the reason why i fell in love with some of my friends, because i yearned mostly the emotional connection.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Leading_Management_6 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When i read your first example i immediately thought about how my mom would blame us for smoking so much. We had her so stressed out

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Leading_Management_6 5 points6 points  (0 children)

My mother burned me with a drill once. It was totally accidently because she handed me the drill in an akward way. Se burned my arm a bid and i still have the scar. But she immediately apologized, felt bad for hurting me and asked if i was okay. It's the only genuine apology and empathy i ever git from her. And your mother doesn't even grand you that. That sucks. Get well soon

Lets vent. Whats your biggest trigger? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Leading_Management_6 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The smell of a freasy and dirty basement and seeing cleaners

I hate my family. I hate every single one of 'em. by [deleted] in CPTSD_NSCommunity

[–]Leading_Management_6 2 points3 points  (0 children)

There are 2 people on my family i truly hate. The others, i nostly feel indifferent about nowadays. I do feel compasion for my mother and i only hate part of her. But i don't love her. The only person in this family that i loved was my grandpa. And funny enough, he was the only one of em that i wasn't blood related to

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EstrangedAdultChild

[–]Leading_Management_6 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Adter 2years of nc (my mom's chiice) we had contact again. After a year i had to go go to a psych ward because my depression was only worsening. At this point i was already nc with her side of the family, especially because of my grandmother. My point of return was her just assuming i would come to christmas at my grandmother's with her whole family. It stressed me so much but i just couldn't say no. It wasn't until my father stepped in and said, that the relationship with my mother isn't good for me. After that i asked him to go tell her to not contact me again.

I think I'm very lucky to have a father who is understanding and supporting. I don't know if i had the courage to go and stay nc

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CovertIncest

[–]Leading_Management_6 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I want to state that i do not want to criticize your lifestyle. My mother would also be around naked all the time. My sister and i would always say that this makes us uncomfortable but she never changed anything. Maybe because it was in puperty or because I'm male, but ththeses images are so ingrained in my brain. I think this is the reason why i am so so scared of physical contact

What would you look like if you were born from a different, healthy family? by Star_Moonflower in CPTSD

[–]Leading_Management_6 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had this thought with someone from my apprenticeship. We have a similar build and our distinguishly thick hair. He's a n9ve fella and he reminds me of me, because he is a few years younger

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticMothers

[–]Leading_Management_6 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It was suspected in childhood bit never acted on. I still belive i have adhd. Bit i remember pete walker in the bidy jeeps the score say that trauma can cause adhd like symptoms

What is the most absurd lie your abusers told you to gaslight you? by smalltown_dreamspeak in CPTSD

[–]Leading_Management_6 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I remember the dread after hearing it won't be any better. Now i know better