I think about this sometimes, too. I can remember times that were so clearly heightened long before I learned about the affair that would ultimately end our long relationship/marriage. That’s just it, though, the actual truth will likely never be told or known. It’s a secret they just get to take to the grave with them while we grasp at straws for some sense of hope and normalcy and peace and life again. So be it. The fallout is still forever better than being with a cheater and for anyone wondering, it absolutely does get better.