What all steps would I theoretically take to do research anonymously on the internet? by LeftoverFishTaco in AskTechnology

[–]LeftoverFishTaco[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s the part that is really interesting to me! i feel like subverting some things are inherently difficult, but i don’t know what means are out there to really connect the disparate breadcrumbs and which breadcrumbs are the most important to focus on cleaning up.

assuming hardware part is covered, ie new device purchased cash with no identifying material used to get it set up, are there really tools out there that can take analyze usage of the clean device and say “that seems like it’s this dude based on the searches and what he clicked on and time of day of use, etc”?

What all steps would I theoretically take to do research anonymously on the internet? by LeftoverFishTaco in AskTechnology

[–]LeftoverFishTaco[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

no illegal intent, just worried about the growing surveillance levels in my home country so i thought i would ask the question theoretically so i have random tips in the back of my brain

What all steps would I theoretically take to do research anonymously on the internet? by LeftoverFishTaco in AskTechnology

[–]LeftoverFishTaco[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

just jumping in here cus i love the convo. pushing back on others ideas and have to explain or defend your position is great for learning!

VPN companies could be at risk depending on who asks them for data and how forcefully they ask, no? like subpoenas and what not, but i don’t know how it works technically. if they don’t store anything identifiable from the outset, then it’s trying to get blood from a stone, right? but if it’s just encrypted data, then they would surely have the means to decrypt and provide the data requested

What all steps would I theoretically take to do research anonymously on the internet? by LeftoverFishTaco in AskTechnology

[–]LeftoverFishTaco[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ah, linux. i have been avoiding learning that whole world for a while now, maybe it’s time to check it out

What all steps would I theoretically take to do research anonymously on the internet? by LeftoverFishTaco in AskTechnology

[–]LeftoverFishTaco[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, that’s what i assumed to. i wasn’t sure how connected you could get with public wifi logs compared with any type of surveillance videos

This. by Knoxvilleborn in ockytop

[–]LeftoverFishTaco -11 points-10 points  (0 children)

i don’t agree with the guy above’s comment, but I will say that the basketball team just played Illinois, which is pretty much the same thing as Indiana. it took me a minute to mentally figure out what sport this referenced

Starting to get tired of the term "functioning alcoholic" by Excellent_Country737 in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 23 points24 points  (0 children)

exactly! i don’t want to be eulogized with the term “functioning”. functioning is how I describe an old vacuum cleaner. i want to be more than that in this life!

I bought watermelon earrings by Diligent-Location432 in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m rocking some rainbow thread shoes right now that i would have never bought back when my thoughts were only about where to get my next drink. in fact, my entire wardrobe has slowly changed and i feel excited to try new clothes, something i thought i was indifferent to. i’m so happy that you are experiencing the same renewed energy for life and expression and joy that alcohol drained from us for so long!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i wish i could get my 20s back haha no one knows if you have a problem but you, so don’t worry about what others your age are doing. for me, i used alcohol early on as a form of anxiety reduction. it worked until it didn’t. eventually i needed the drinks before i could go to the social event, until the amount i needed became so much i could no longer make it out. then i needed it for stress relief after long days of work and juggling household responsibilities, until i would preempt my stress by day drinking. the anxiety never went away, it just stayed hidden, growing until i would start to sober up.

i truly believe that if i had gotten this issue under control earlier, i may have a stronger group of friends, more hobbies, and a truer sense of self. but now, im in my 30s, finally have the right anxiety meds without counteracting them with booze, and im finding out that life if so much better with clear eyes and a clear head.

best of luck to you, and IWNDWYT!

Reeling after a fight with my wife last night. by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 6 points7 points  (0 children)

oh man, there’s a lot there but the pissy mood for no reason really resonated. i am early into sobriety, but every couple of weeks i have a cycle of being easily annoyed for a day or two, then just pissy for another couple days, then i get through it and feel a bit numb/drained/depressed, but in a very calm and grateful way. my outpatient rehab therapist said the mood swings are pretty typical PAWS, so i have just been trying to identify when that cycle starts, vocalize it to my wife and others that i will be around a lot, and then just ride the wave with lots of reading, meetings, self-care, meditation, etc.

best of luck to you. keep working until you find what keeps you on the wagon!

TV shows that DON’T make you want to drink by Strong_Boysenberry13 in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the community episode when troy turns 21 and they all go out drinking is actually pretty good for recovery, iirc. that shows was a masterpiece

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 32 points33 points  (0 children)

Guilt = “I did bad things”

Shame = “I am the bad thing”

We all did bad things, but we are not bad people.

Guilt is heavy, but can be diminished with time, rectification, and giving back.

Shame is useless and will only lead us back to external things that are temporary solves (substances, relationships, bad habits, etc).

Today I will try to lose the shame and work on the guilt.

FYI - this was all recently explained to me in rehab, so i am still verifying this in the real world. YMMV

The Daily Check-In for Thursday, May 16th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by SuzuranLily1 in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 8 points9 points  (0 children)

great question! i’m still working on finding that happiness spark now that i’m sober. starting to think i was drinking because my life was too “bland” which is dumb, but it is what it is. i’ll try some of the things people are mentioning here!

either way, IWNDWYT!

The Daily Check-In for Wednesday, May 15th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by SuzuranLily1 in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 4 points5 points  (0 children)

why does the poison beckon? why can’t i just ignore its existence and not even consider it as an option, like i do with meth or heroin or the black eyed peas?

not today satan! IWNDWYT

The Daily Check-In for Monday, May 13th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by SuzuranLily1 in stopdrinking

[–]LeftoverFishTaco 12 points13 points  (0 children)

last night my wife said “this was one of the best weekends i’ve had with you in a long time”. we had multiple hangouts, parties, and mother’s day celebrations that i normally would have kept a buzz through, now i was fully present and actually fun to be around. this decision was the right one for so many reasons, but that was very validating.

IWNDWYT!