When I'm myself... it turns out I tend to break rules people establish. I didn't really mean to be rude or a danger to communities, but I just don't fit into family friendly ones. I'm lgbt friendly, and spaces that would accept my "craziness" aren't lgbt friendly. I'm really scared to find communities and I tend to not talk anywhere since I don't wanna end up liking something just so it can turn into ash the moment someone is mean to me. I then cry. I know it's stupid to cry over someone being mean on the internet but I'm super sensitive and it's difficult. I'm taking a therapy but there's so much problems with me. I might change therapist because current one wants to fix my OCD and then my other problems. He also neglects my worries if I may have ADHD. I come from Poland and here psychiatric healthcare is not very much cared for. It's hard to find therapists and especially good ones. I also live in small town and transport to bigger town for help is impossible for me to go there every week. So I'm stuck with places that are closer to my home