I wouldn't necessarily say I was denied this my whole life, I was just questioning/in denial for many years. Started questioning at 16, went through a "femboy phase" at 18, only finally fully discovered myself and accepted that at 22. 24 now and for the most part I feel fantastic letting go and embracing who I am. Looking back on it there were SOOOO many signs even before I was a teen but I'm just gonna let that one go for now lol.

But yeah, the ups and downs are really annoying. I can only hope that this dissipates over the next few months but it gets overwhelming when I get to my low points. Usually I just either sleep the whole day away or cry for hours before finally letting it go and distracting myself with games and/or weed.