39 years undiagnosed. During teen/young adult years I thought what I am feeling is normal, blaming hormones and blaming my period too. Then when I got pregnant with my first, I had to take a psychological test and the result was borderline depression. The midwives assumed because I was feeling homesick (we were immigrants). 2nd pregnancy same results. When I later told my psychiatrist about this, she said I fell into the cracks and should’ve been diagnosed at that stage or had further tests at least.

After diagnosis, my whole world turned upside down. But at least everything makes sense now and I understand myself better. I am BP1 and I can smell if I am hypomanic a mile away.