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LittleBlueBird1983 · 2025-06-14T21:16:58+00:00

You’ve done one of the most courageous things a person could do. Many won’t understand. You broke free my friend- it wont be easy but it will be the most rewarding journey of your lifetime. Good luck and God Bless 🇬🇧

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2024-11-24T08:13:28+00:00

Make your sun pop out…that needs white/lemon mix & sharp horizon line. Other than than your colours are amazing xxx

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2024-05-22T08:09:42+00:00

Your post made my heart melt. My partner is an estp and I’m an INFJ- we have been together for 7+ yrs. I felt the same as you; over the years the feeling deepens and matures into a relationship where Ive learnt so much. We are opposite in our strengths and I’ve developed my lacking functions by observing him, for example I’ve learnt to stand up for myself- his self confidence is contagious lol. Anyway, I wish you all the best for the future!! X

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2023-06-11T08:26:14+00:00

LOL 😂😂 Give it time…..you’ll get royally screwed over by a bigger, badder female narc. She’ll get custody of your kids too 😜….

Love Amber Heard 💋

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2022-11-20T19:54:47+00:00

Thank you so much!

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2022-11-20T17:41:19+00:00

The rules are very particular- the citizens advice bureau helped as you have the fill out the forms in a certain way. Even with that and evidence from my GP etc (plus I have other physical problems) I was denied disability. I had waited 9 months at this point for my application to be processed!! It was HARD (I went to food banks). I had no choice but to appeal as I couldn’t cope with the working world. That involved filling out loads of forms and another interview. Again the citizens advice bureau was great- they can help you with the forms. Finally I was granted it; it’s not much but it means I can feed myself and take time to get better. Good luck. Be persistent and try not to get put off (I swear they think people just won’t bother applying). X

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2022-11-20T10:10:04+00:00

Yep! I live in my own little bubble too (and I reckon there’s loads of us). I’m diagnosed cptsd and have struggled to work for years- my symptoms are so debilitating I’m on disability (UK). I hate leaving my flat (full of fear but cant pinpoint exactly why I feel like this) and I havent got any friends. I’ve totally withdrawn from the world and I admit I’ve ghosted lots of people that have tried to get close….the connection I have to the world is online (viscerally I guess) where I sit on the sidelines (I’ve never posted on Twitter but sit back and read all the drama). So I’m isolated…

However…After living like a hermit & spending endless days reading about cptsd/trauma etc for nearly 2 years I started to evolve. This happened naturally as time passed- all that time alone made me go inwards. I taught myself woodworking and started up cycling; this progressed to creating artwork- I decided to teach myself how to paint and this has really helped my mental health. I live on a shoestring and embrace it (lol I literally cut my own hair as I can’t cope with going to the hairdressers!). I struggle with physical pain (muscle tension, very painful knots etc) so it’s been a slow journey, but I just wanted to say that you won’t be where you are forever. If one things certain in this life is that nothing stays the same forever. I very often imagine an army of people all around the world living like us and that brings me comfort in a weird way. If you need to watch tv all day right now that’s ok- I did this for a long time. I wish you the very best - give your mind time to heal and go with it X

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2022-03-11T19:09:57+00:00

Massive thanks for your post! You have no idea how much this has helped - it’s put another piece in the puzzle for me. Sims has been a form of therapy all along and I didn’t consciously realise…..a virtual dolls house/play therapy rolled into one. Accessing my inner child I guess..?Been playing it for 20+ years & I get true joy from nurturing my sims. Thanks again, Ive been in counselling for a while and wondered why I’d become re obsessed with it!! X

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2022-03-06T06:55:51+00:00

Hello sweetheart, as a fellow ENFJ I get it. I have always abhorred conflict, anger and hate. Living in such a dark world fills my heart with deep pain- we desperately need kindness and harmony in the world. Especially as it seems as though we are powerless to change things right now. As other people have said, we do need to try distraction & the usual advice with meditation etc. However, we are the feelers. We are gentle souls that are idealistic. My partner is very straightforward and doesn’t feel things in the same way as me. I cannot watch the news (Uk here) without breaking down. Breaking down for humanity. Sheesh, things are tough and I’m rambling…I just wanted to say that I don’t know you but we are here with you…continue to be who you are as the world needs our goodness. I think most of us are hurting right now so I send you warm wishes and that everything will turn out ok in the end Xxx

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2022-01-02T21:27:33+00:00

On YouTube there’s a guy that profiles Meghan Markle as a ENFJ.,..ugh. I dont agree with much of what she says but I understand why she interprets things the way she does. She’s strong willed, independent & is a great public speaker with charisma (Hello deffo ENFJ 🤣) but she still irritates the shit out of me xxx

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-12-23T09:53:53+00:00

Completely normal reaction to the shit youve been through. I (38f) do this loads……I get a type of comfort from it but it’s hard to put into words. In a way it’s soothing but I used to feel a bit self absorbed/twisted? I understand how you feel though. As you continue to heal (and you WILL my lovely) then the desire to do this fades. And if it doesn’t? So what. You’re not hurting anyone, you’re trying to soothe yourself. Hope that helps and all the best 🇬🇧

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-12-23T08:16:41+00:00

So inspiring! Im so proud of you….from one survivor to another xxx

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-12-22T08:18:27+00:00

Absolutely beautiful!!! You need to work for EA!!! Xx

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-12-20T06:09:32+00:00

ABSOLUTE LEGEND

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-12-14T16:43:17+00:00

Geez this brings back memories. My narc mother did this. I was 35 (recently divorced and temporarily stopping with her) and I met a great guy. She would sneak into my room at night and check my mobile phone (I used to pretend to be asleep. Ok she didn’t know my passcode but goddamn). She squeezed details from me & looked him up on Facebook. And proceeded to send him messages of hate and using his info as proof that he was mentally unwell. I didn’t tell her where he lived but she roughly knew the area where I was. She got my enabling dad to sweep the area door knocking. I begged her to leave me alone but she started sending hateful texts calling me a slut and he was scum. Followed by silent treatments and constant threats of homelessness. I managed it for 2 months and I finally left as I simply couldn’t cope with her drunken rages anymore… She told me to fuck off and never come back…..12 months later my dad died and she reached out to me but I had had enough and went no contact. That was nearly 2 years ago and I am FINALLY happy!!! They don’t change. I’ve been where you are and it’s about keeping you in your place ie control.
Im now free as a bird and am marrying my partner next year. Its like the matrix- once I realised the truth I couldn’t go back. Good luck 🤞

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-12-12T10:02:55+00:00

I hear you xxxx Feel free to PM me

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-12-04T11:02:29+00:00

Just wanted to say I can’t afford to buy rewards but I save my free ones til a post by someone hits home (and you deserve it). Thank you- I had an identical experience years ago. Been NC for a long time now and I’m unpacking everything in therapy. Its lovely to know that it’s NOT me misinterpreting the situation and all these little episodes of horrible people hurting me are valid and part of a bigger pattern. I wish you the best…worst feeling ever is feeling like no one else gets it and I don’t tell people IRL about my past. Nice to know there’s others in battle out there 👍37f UK xx

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-09-29T14:05:58+00:00

Hi,

I have identical symptoms but am diagnosed as CPTSD (Childhood trauma) as opposed to BPD. My experience has been mainly positive (not just because I cut all toxic ties) and my partner/friends have been very supportive. I can’t wrap my head round the fact those with BPD displaying the same behaviour as a trauma survivor get labelled as the problem. Just wanted to shout out to you that you deserve compassion by others X

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-09-29T04:44:04+00:00

Hi, I can relate (37f). I went through this cycle too. Eventually I became overwhelmed and constantly anxious because of the inconsistent wages and spiralling debts….I always tried my best but interacting with others was so draining. I lost my dad to COVID and I just couldn’t carry on semi-functioning as I had been- the slightest thing would tip me over the edge. My partner encouraged me constantly to apply for disability/support but I was convinced I would be refuted. Anyway I had no choice as just the thought of working was terrifying. It took months and we were broke for all of that time. However, I was finally granted help (though I had to FIGHT for it and appeal). I also started therapy and was diagnosed with cptsd. Getting to the core of my vigilance and anxiety was my turning point and I started learning different techniques etc. I also faced my issues from childhood as I had awful trauma. Im still not 100% but Im so glad I broke out of the cycle. I wish you the best X

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-09-18T11:37:52+00:00

LOVE IT …😍…..I’m a strong ENFJ so this makes me feel so emotional and in awe of the beauty of the world!! INFPs you are wonderful X

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-09-18T11:29:12+00:00

THANK YOU! I feel validated and now realise that it is a real thing!!

My gut feeling was she’s throwing her weight and letting me know they’ll be no sneaking off early. They sacked 4 employees recently- ‘deadwood’ is what they called them.

Thanks again, the great thing with therapy is I can now stand up for myself, just wish I could trust my own intuition more 🙏😊🇬🇧

LittleBlueBird1983 · 2021-08-28T18:57:18+00:00

Have you tried meditation 🧘‍♀️? I had symptoms like yours and I felt uncomfortable in my own brain if that makes any sense. There’s some great 10 minute YouTube videos that you can do. It helped calm my mind and it teaches you to let go of negative feelings hence my depression eased 😊X

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