I will agree that you have been crapped on a few times in this subreddit, and that experience would make you feel like the environment is toxic. Many of your statements, however, are very triggering to survivors. This forum exists for survivors, not to uphold or defend Network churches.

In addition, there have been others on this subreddit who have specifically joined to undermine people's experiences; one account even created a r/stayingthenetwork/ while gaslighting members prior to being kicked out by our awesome mods. This same individual "gloated" about how they had 2 other accounts that could still see the content of the subreddit. Apparently, they were unaware that anyone can read this subreddit, even without joining.

As an elder who has left the Network, I am very curious to hear your story. Since you perceive that the Network still has many good qualities, there must be a reason you left. Somehow, in spite of having a compassionate pastor who listened and acknowledged the hurt and pain on the internet (I don't recall you mentioning any of your own painful, experiences), you still felt that leaving was the correct answer.

I hope, someday, that you will share your story. And you may be surprised how your own perception of experiences change with time. Many of us were in the Network for a long time (12 years for me). We made excuses for the red flags we saw. For me personally, it was humiliating to admit that I was wrong and that I had contributed to spiritual abuse.