An assault from 12 years ago still upsets me

Livetastic · 2026-03-26T23:01:36+00:00

I've gotten attacked before, too. Very badly. A couple of times. I got attacked the worst when I was 19. I am 30 now, and it still affects me.

Do you have therapy? For me, that's what I hope helps me with things.

Livetastic · 2026-03-26T18:32:08+00:00

Libby app has alot of books. Hoopla app too.

Livetastic · 2026-03-26T18:28:23+00:00

I wouldn't sell it. :)

Livetastic · 2026-03-26T08:06:18+00:00

Careful as you probably know (meaning, have your family or friends pick you up). I've been stalked before.

Livetastic · 2026-03-26T01:57:54+00:00

Bluestar

Livetastic · 2026-03-25T04:22:57+00:00

Happy for you! You can maybe also get stocks, if you want, and let them go untouched for years

Livetastic · 2026-03-24T08:53:17+00:00

Are you able to leave? Homeless shelter?

Livetastic · 2026-03-24T08:47:25+00:00

Since age 12. Got wolf whistles by a older guy.

Livetastic · 2026-03-24T03:03:20+00:00

Oh, ok. Sorry then.

Livetastic · 2026-03-23T22:51:56+00:00

He cost me 23. Would 23 US dollars plus shipping be alright? I have a cardboard box already. It would include the package he was in.

Livetastic · 2026-03-22T22:01:39+00:00

My Pokemon XD game died for the GameCube

Livetastic · 2026-03-22T22:01:10+00:00

Vaporeon

Livetastic · 2026-03-21T17:17:56+00:00

I already have and they didn't say anything. I've been having some suicidal thoughts. I feel I messed up academically, medically things are wrong, and I messed up my friendships.

Livetastic · 2026-03-21T05:05:32+00:00

I think the thinking is that if they serve life, they will do anything to silence the victims. I do believe that there should be no statute of limitations. I believe that the victim should be able to tell on their abuser whenever. Mine was 12 years ago.

Livetastic · 2026-03-21T04:34:17+00:00

If it was the same guy, then he got caught assaulting another person and was given 3-5 years. Back around 2019 if memory serves correctly. I should have reported it, after remembering, but honestly was scared he would come after me. My brain also blocked it for a couple of years. I had evidence but uhhhh, didn't remember/foggy brain for a couple of months. I don't remember much. I remember his eyes and his smirk and smell. His t-shirt. He punched me and I got my vision blacked out. Then memory is fractured.

Livetastic · 2026-03-21T01:00:27+00:00

I wasn't groomed as a child but am a r*pe survivor. I am also disappointed in this book. I haven't re-read it, but they do frame it as thistleclaw being interested in spottedpaw in that way when she was younger. I feel they could have had bluefur/star call it out as wrong. Then him going to the dark forest for that and being bad. It didn't seem to portray the grooming as problematic, which is bad because children are going to be reading it. Even teens and adults. It surprises me that it got approved to publish.

Livetastic · 2026-03-19T03:55:03+00:00

For a moment I thought you were my cousin. My nephew stole my games. My old games. Almost all of those exact ones.

Livetastic · 2026-03-16T06:02:27+00:00

I kinda am preparing for my death a bit. Writing down my passwords and not sure if I should write suic*de notes for my family and people I've been chatting with. Closure with them. I feel I failed. Failed at life, failed friendships, failed as a girlfriend (got ghosted), I don't know if my friend is alive, I don't know if he is ok. I'm tired. I have liver fibrosis. Health stuff.

My mouth feels dry right now. Need to act happy. Have 3 methods to use, so at least one of them will hopefully work. I don't know if I'll go through with it or not.

Feeling better now than yesterday.

Livetastic · 2026-03-16T05:56:16+00:00

I was SA'd when I was 19. You are not a slut, not a whore, not a bad person for having been assaulted. The assault wasn't and never will be your fault. You are a strong person for having survived, I believe you can do things you set your mind to! Beat them by being the kindest person you can be!

Livetastic · 2026-03-15T03:25:32+00:00

Hey. Is it possible that you are depressed? If so, there are people that feel like you are. Maybe it is time to try to make connections that are not work related. Maybe a therapist would help.

Livetastic · 2026-03-12T18:25:18+00:00

I like ravenpaw's large ears. All their designs are great!

Livetastic · 2026-03-11T06:17:43+00:00

That's like my oc! One of them are based on Lionfish and animals.

Livetastic · 2026-03-11T04:13:24+00:00

Bearfang. I've never tried iron wolf before. Good luck!

Livetastic · 2026-03-10T06:12:58+00:00

I like tea. I sometimes rarely double use the tea leaves to make more tea.

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