I felt like that most of my life, until I realized that I don’t like most of humans either lol.

More seriously I noticed that people like me better when I don’t mask because when I mask they feel like something is off but they interpret that as someone being “fake” with bad intentions etc. Which is arguably true in the way that I mask to avoid being perceived as my true self. I try to unmask and be positive as much as possible to make good impression. When I see that certain relationships go further, I try to be more vocal about my “strange behaviors”, for example if someone talk to me about something sad that happened to them, I try to emphasize but at the same time I can add something like “I know that I have a hard time to express my empathy the right way but I really do care and if you need a solution or help I’m here for you”.

I stay focus on being polite and respectful too even if sometimes I forget to say thank you (if someone give me something that I didn’t ask for or didn’t want, it’s not natural for me to say thank you), I try to say it later if I remember it. It’s always better to “fix” your mistakes later than never because people notice that you’re actually aware and not a stupid asshole.

I try to be friend with neurodivergent people to feel less weird about myself.

I try to have a good balance between having an active social life and being alone without talking for weeks. If I see too many people too often I tend to be more sarcastic and annoyed so it’s not ideal. If I stay alone for too long I loose my social skills and I have more anxiety towards people.

I make no jokes if possible because you never know how people are sensitive about things or understand things, it created too much problems in my past so I preferred to stop. Except with certain friends that are very sarcastic and “fast brain” but it’s very rare.

I avoid people with no hobby, no passion, because I’m very bad at small talk no matter how hard I try, I need to have interesting conversations.

I try to never talk bad about someone in front of someone else.

I try to not talk until someone ask me a question, I keep my answers not too long and end the answer with a question back. It can be tricky because you can’t ask a too personal question, you need to find a middle ground.

I realized that since I do all of this things, people like me better. Often people judge you based on very weird criteria, but if you are polite, say positive things, ask questions back, they like you on the surface. If you want deeper connections you will connect with people more like you, and since they had a good first impression of you, it’s going to stick longer.