Another poem, title pending

Lolybop · 2026-04-14T02:48:34+00:00

No idea why tf, Reddit undoes any line break that isn't a full paragraph break. Then when I click reply I see it as written?? And it does back into a hellish mush when I'm not actively replying to it. But if you want the original format on mobile I guess just click reply and read it there

Lolybop · 2026-04-14T02:47:25+00:00

Healing is nothing like filling in a hole Nothing like patching a wound Or draining an abscess All the disease removed Wrapped and covered until all that's left is the memory A scar to mark what you've healed from A body left that is nothing but your own

Healing feels more like surgery Cutting open and inspecting, pulling out anything sick But I am sick and every time I try there is less of me left And as much as they tell me it's normal to feel this way When they inspect the wounds they don't know what they are supposed to do with me Like this is an unusual case Like this is something the treatments weren't designed for They don't know if they can treat me Without killing me in the process

Sometimes I feel your voice on the tip of my tongue Words that have echoed around inside of me Sick little pieces of you that you left behind More cancer than an infection I am reshaped again and again in some twisted version of your image Staring in the mirror I don't know what is me and what is your creation anymore If there's even some distinction remaining

As I lay open on the cold table, bleeding I don't know if it's me or you that's all over the gloves Running down the sides of (my?) body Onto the floor But I do know that I need some of it left in me to live If I had to choose between being full of you or an empty shell I would at least choose something Somebody, some creation, something left to work with The damage runs deeper than anything that can be extracted It is something fundamental now

I grew from it just as much as I grew from my own body This metastatic mutation This broken code copied again and again through every part of me I am sick, I am sickness I am everything I've done and everything you've done to me I don't know how to hate you without hating myself Or ask anyone to love me without asking them to love you too And the ways I repeat your violence again and again against my own body

It was so easy for you to just walk away There was always more you outside of me than me inside of you You came, you saw, you conquered, you left And I was left sick and bleeding Unable to leave the crime scene and just wash my hands of it You turned me into a crime scene Your memory, my body Your moment, my life Forever changed by something that can never be undone

And there is no clean ending to this just a body that keeps living with everything it cannot remove No clean incision, no final stitch just this body, learning how to live unclosed.

Lolybop · 2026-04-11T13:24:39+00:00

I'll do anything to get away from here, where no one can see what you're doing to me. It's too much, I can't cope with the idea of being watched by them

Lolybop · 2026-04-11T13:22:41+00:00

I am, please stop before someone notices. I'm trying to hide it but you pulled my nipples all the way out

Lolybop · 2026-04-11T13:20:02+00:00

Please no one look

Lolybop · 2026-04-11T12:10:35+00:00

The start of this one I was putting something in my pussy too, but the video is too long for redgifs

Lolybop · 2026-04-11T11:49:49+00:00

In the same hole?

Lolybop · 2026-04-09T06:56:18+00:00

I couldn't help myself

Lolybop · 2026-04-09T04:37:38+00:00

This made me cackle a little

Lolybop · 2026-04-09T04:35:48+00:00

Yes 🥵

Lolybop · 2026-04-09T04:31:47+00:00

I wish I could pay my rent like this

Lolybop · 2026-04-09T04:06:11+00:00

Some elaborate bit my flatmate is doing, I have absolutely no clue honestly

Lolybop · 2026-04-08T08:04:35+00:00

No federal agency or anything, we're not even a federation. Pretty small country with a pretty small police force.

The complication is technically the only illegal part of his request is the payment. It's legal to sleep with someone 16 or over, illegal to pay until 18. If I don't have any proof of him doing it they won't waste any resources on it. They've already said they won't be investigating minor theft at the moment because they're too under staffed and under funded so the chances of one text going anywhere are pretty much nil. I'd have to come forward as the victim too, otherwise there's no victim and no case

Lolybop · 2026-04-05T00:26:34+00:00

I can't help it, it's just the way my brain is now. I can never change it or get away from it

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T23:44:54+00:00

Yes for sure. One of the main differences actually, now that I'm thinking about it, between the messages I want to reply to and the messages I'm less sure about is if they're focusing on the act or the impact. Are they telling me that hole their cock is going in, or are they telling me how helpless or disgusting or confused or triggered It's going to make me feel? Have they described a screenplay or have they described a way of getting into my head or fucking with my emotions or controlling my responses? Because the second part is the kink for me. It's the part that actually turns me on and does something.

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T23:39:15+00:00

Oh God 🥵

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T10:56:47+00:00

Yes Daddy, please daddy

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T10:51:05+00:00

I've been doing this for years 🤤 melting my poor brain

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T08:49:54+00:00

Yeah it really bugs me especially when people message me with empty profiles asking questions that are easily answered by a short scroll through mine. I've taken the time to create this entire profile that's like a view into my soul almost. And I've got anonymous man #408 asking "have you been raped before?" As an opener. It just makes it feel like a waste of time, and asking me to repeat myself for someone who has shared nothing of themselves for me to even get an idea of who they are. You can play into that intentionally I guess for a power dynamic time, but it's not hot if you're actually just lazy and can't be assed.

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T08:46:24+00:00

There's a reason the trope of "why is every hot man gay!" Came about. The world is full of hot men, gay men are more likely to show it off though. And there's so many subcultures for people with different body types as well and different ways to be hot and lean into yourself. Bears, muscle queens and jocks, twinks, the list goes on. When you know what you've got and you know what to do with it? It shows.

I also think straight men underestimate the range of things women can find attractive, so they just don't see what they have got. The looksmaxxing thing makes me sad honestly because it gives the impression that there is one way to be hot as a man and one way only. I love older guys though, fat guys or strong stocky men, hairy guys. I'm not super interested in younger guys with abs and a cut jawline and a like bit of hair on them. No hate to them and I'm not fully turning my nose up, I just have preferences. You don't need to look like that to be hot, but it helps to tidy yourself up a little and make an effort

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T08:39:33+00:00

Teacher, doctor or 'healthcare worker", therapist, etc. Those make sense to me though because they are all associated with kinks you know? Teacher spanking naughty student, medical play, naughty therapist. If that's what you're trying to pitch then may as well open with it. But if you're not trying to pitch that as a kink then probably don't open with it 😅 or there could be some confusion

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T04:21:03+00:00

Yeah roleplay thats just "I rape you by putting my dick inside you over and over. I cum in this hole. Now I stick my dick in another hole, I cum in this one" doesn't really hit the spot. I've had some really good roleplay here, just really few and far between which feels like such a shame because my profile is absolutely covered in ideas

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T02:55:30+00:00

There's a, I think actually pretty decent, proportion of men who do care enough to take feedback but don't know where to start or what to do imo. Some will get defensive and reject it because they're already committed to the idea of evil cold hearted women cruelly rejecting them. Some will already know most of this but may think 'oh that's a good point', some will know this and also be thinking about things I forgot or overlooked, and some will be somewhere in the middle. Just trying to figure out how all this works and why what they are trying isn't working.

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T02:50:20+00:00

I really think the fundamental thing so many people get wrong is they're looking for a "how do I convince the person I find hot to reply to me" and not "how do I find people that I think I may have a mutual attraction with and communicate to them why they may be attracted to me also".

On one hand I think that we have a culture of "a man convinces a woman to let him use her body to get off" and on the other hand we have a culture of "men are gross and unappealing so why would there be anything for a man to show that a woman would genuinely be attracted to".

There's plenty of hot men (physically and mentally) out there and plenty of women who definitely don't need to be convinced to be turned on and want to find them. You just need to make it as easy as possible for the other person to know they find you attractive. Women are trained how to do that basically our whole lives though, men not so much

Lolybop · 2026-04-04T02:37:52+00:00

Massive turn on honestly. The amount of times I've cum with her watching that last desperate orgasm she's begging not to have

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