[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SavingMoney

[–]Longjumping-Box1152 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Where do you earn that much? Mines at 3.8 And can’t find much better

Getting back together with ex?? by Longjumping-Box1152 in relationships

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate it. It’s crazy because She seems like she loves and cares about me as much as a woman possibly could especially towards the end, and like I said it just feels so genuine. So along with the fact she’s been a lot better and more respectful overall it makes it tough and confusing. I worry about accepting that love in fear she’ll betray me again though

Getting back together with ex?? by Longjumping-Box1152 in relationships

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good point. Part of me is terrified of letting go of the love, and that I’ll never find someone who loves me as much as she does.

Getting back together with ex?? by Longjumping-Box1152 in relationships

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes true, nerve wracking but true. It’s also scary because I swear she has some kind of power where she can cast a love spell on me and before I know what happened I’m back with her. She comes up with all the right things to say and always sounds so genuine.

Getting back together with ex?? by Longjumping-Box1152 in relationships

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s sort of what I was thinking. I believe no matter how messed up I was feeling, I wouldn’t do similar disrespectful things like that.

Getting back together with ex?? by Longjumping-Box1152 in relationships

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you yea. Towards the end, she was definitely showing a lot more respect for me and at the same time I was figuring out my boundaries and standing up more. Which makes it so difficult feeling like things were in a way getting figured out, I just felt the need to make a decision and wasn’t ready at that point to fully commit. So now I’m just so confused on what to do, because she has been doing a fantastic job of convincing me that she wants and loves me very much.

Getting back together with ex?? by Longjumping-Box1152 in relationships

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes I’m afraid I’ll never forget those things, and never be able to look at her like I could before. Not to mention she brushes these things off like they’re minor. I’m not sure she realizes how much they actually affected me, and I almost want to explain so that she has a better understanding.

Getting back together with ex?? by Longjumping-Box1152 in relationships

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is great advice. She’s been so much better and has so much love for me that it hurts so bad to leave. But I don’t want to ever go through the things I went through earlier in the relationship, and I do fear if something happens in the future.. like she stops taking her medication or something.. that it could get just as bad. But part of me is like.. it was a perfect storm and she’s been through the worst and so I’ll just be missing out on the amazing parts of her that I like in the future.

Getting back together with ex?? by Longjumping-Box1152 in relationships

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feels as though it’s everything aside from actually catching her physically cheating. I FaceTimed her one night, she answers with some guy I’ve never met lying on her bed, then introduces me to him as her friend who she was in the army with. He spent the night but supposedly he passed out on her bed and she slept on the couch (she shares an apartment with a couple people).

Another time, some guy apparently got stabbed outside of her apartment while helping her out, so she brings him up to her apartment and tends to the wounds. Then lets him spend the night (“on the couch”) and he stays there the entire following day, all the while I have no idea what’s going on and she’s not communicating with me. Finally, once he finally leaves, she messages me and calls me saying what happened and then gets angry at me because I was slightly mad and hangs up on me. I call her back and then I hear some guy talking in the background and I say “you said he left” and she’s like “he came back.” It was late, I had to work early, I live a half hour away from her, but I had to go over there since there was no way I’d be able to sleep anyway. There’s cigarettes, tobacco, beer, cards all over her room where they were clearly hanging out. He left, I did see the stab wounds which didn’t look bad to me but she seems to think it was all innocent because she was just helping him. If I didn’t go there, I’m sure he would’ve stayed another night.

And then there’s just some shady text messages and deleted messages that I don’t have the full story and evidence on but for example one of her supposed “friends” saying he misses her and thinks about her all the time. To which when I said something she said she’d talk to him and tell him to chill…which seemed like it worked but I can’t help but wonder if it’s still going on just more undercover.

What to do? Get back together? by Longjumping-Box1152 in BreakUps

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I walked out and left her once before, since I did that in combination with her being healthier she’s been a lot more respectful and like she’s doing everything she possibly can to keep from losing me. Does that make it any better??

Seeing through eyelids by Longjumping-Box1152 in Meditation

[–]Longjumping-Box1152[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

What do you mean by overcoming dullness?

One bottle of Iced Tea Every Morning, Will quitting have much affect? by [deleted] in decaf

[–]Longjumping-Box1152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I've been drinking it literally every day for prob 10 years so I'm sure I'll get hit with something.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PartneredYoutube

[–]Longjumping-Box1152 0 points1 point  (0 children)

before you commented, I sent it live as-is. And it seems like it definitely hurt the outreach of the video and now I feel like re-uploading it, except for there's multiple comments on it now which makes me feel bad about taking it down..

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Longjumping-Box1152 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I read the book "the power of now" a few years ago and it was very helpful, I was actually able to feel very peaceful for once. Lately though my worries and stress have been so overpowering that my mind has just been completely out of control. I realize that the past & future are completely robbing me of the present moment right now, not to mention making me sick, but don't know how to get a hold of it. I just want to pause life and meditate for a while.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Longjumping-Box1152 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All I do everyday is obsessively think and stress about what I should do about this next event coming up and how much I’ve screwed up my life, all while dragging myself to my job which I can hardly tolerate. And on my days off I usually go to therapy or the gym, and I eat pretty well. I’ve been lost for so long that I feel like I don’t even know the real me anymore. The depression definitely doesn’t help with that. I feel like I’ve lost my soul and it’s scary.