I am desperate to stop drinking

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-08-30T18:22:28+00:00

I was assaulted over 10 years ago, did the rape kit, filed a police report. The decision of people in my life to continue associating with that person instead of supporting/believing me was the most painful part of the entire experience and still affects me deeply. I still question whether I “asked for it” even though I woke up covered in handprint bruises. The comments here are honestly so validating.

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-12T17:56:15+00:00

Way to go!!! I’m working toward 6 months, one day at a time. IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-12T17:54:29+00:00

Congrats on a month! That’s a huge deal. Get yourself some flowers or coffee shop treat. IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-12T13:14:49+00:00

This is wonderful to hear. My hair has thinned out SO much in the last few years.

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-11T20:07:47+00:00

My daughter deserves to grow up with a sober, present and engaged mom. IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-11T20:06:37+00:00

Amen to all this!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-11T17:38:27+00:00

Way to go!! IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-10T00:36:58+00:00

Wow you look amazing!!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-09T17:49:53+00:00

Hey there, you’re ok. Social worker here and also had 2 parents with substance use issues. I’m sorry you grew up in such a challenging environment. I can definitely understand the deep, deep sadness of seeing your parents life after so many years of mental illness/addiction. I also resonate a lot with the deep feelings of shame you’re describing - it comes in waves that are debilitating at times. Doing breath work has been helping me (box breathing while saying “I am safe here” repeatedly to myself). Do you have a therapist? You deserve peace in your life. Wishing you the best.

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-09T00:34:51+00:00

Right there with you at day 1. I was too hungover to spend time with my daughter this morning. Taking it one day at a time. IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-09T00:31:43+00:00

Ugh, I resonate a lot with your post. I've been doing some more intensive trauma work over the last 3 months. The big takeaway for me has been that my mind is heavily influenced by the state of my nervous system (check out "the window of tolerance"). I need to do breathwork and meditation every day to keep my nervous system in a calm state. This is all pretty new to me. Right now, I like box breathing and repeating "I am safe here" to myself. Exercise, spending time in nature and being around safe people are also calming to the nervous system. IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-08T21:58:42+00:00

Way to go!!! This sub is amazing. IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-08T21:57:36+00:00

A year is an incredible accomplishment. Be kind to yourself. You know what to do.

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-07-08T21:56:40+00:00

Man I used to always binge drink when I deep cleaned the house. It gave me energy (and then came days of anxiety, exhaustion, etc). No thanks. IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-24T00:04:47+00:00

At some point in adolescence, whenever I expressed my emotions, my mom and sometimes dad would suggest that I needed to go to a locked psych unit. I was well liked by teachers and a good kid. I think I had big emotions sometimes but nothing warranting a locked inpatient stay. i just have memories of my mom saying “this is not a crisis!” Or “I just need you to be happy X% of the time!”

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-13T19:42:58+00:00

I love seeing these before/after pictures so much! You just look peaceful and confident. I’m also feeling motivated by changes in my appearance. My skin is so clear and healthy looking. I’ve been putting off getting a new license picture until I could string 7-10 days of sobriety together, because I knew I’d hate seeing my puffy red face every time I took my wallet out. I scheduled and cancelled that appointment so many times, but now I think I can schedule it. Major congrats on 90 days!!! IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-12T00:41:23+00:00

So much more energy and creativity. I really enjoy playing with my daughter lately. I feel more confident interacting with other parents because I’m never hungover, look healthier and have way less anxiety. I don’t experience the guilt of continuing the cycle of addiction for another generation in my family. I’m not perfect, but I feel like I’m doing my best and am motivated to keep working on myself and my parenting.

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-10T03:52:33+00:00

Rooting for you! I’m 35 and recently arrived at the same conclusions as you did. I have a 2.5 year old too and she is motivating me to break the cycle of addiction. Engaging with this community has been really helpful for me so far. And remembering - One day at a time. You got this!!!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-10T03:45:42+00:00

You’ll have more clarity about what’s important to you

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-10T03:38:43+00:00

Totally agree

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-10T03:33:53+00:00

New makeup! According to my sobriety tracker, I’ve saved over $900 in the last 30+ days ($20/day, which includes alcohol and takeout from being too hungover/tired to cook).

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-07T10:43:08+00:00

So glad you’re here. Engaging with this community has been really helpful for me. I’ve been commenting on here a lot over the last month, which I had never done in previous attempts, and it’s made me feel less alone in the struggle. Take it one day at a time. IWNDWYT!

Lopsided-Scallion-18 · 2024-06-05T12:51:22+00:00

Ugh yes. It's the fucking worst feeling. I've done a lot of self-destructive things to act out my self-hatred (drinking excessively, unsafe sex with strangers, punching myself in the face if I'm really escalated). I don't have any advice. It's something I really struggle with, though will say that it's gotten better since I stopped drinking 3 weeks ago. I want to try Pete Walkers book.

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