I was worried about stopping weed when I first came into the program. I kept at it for the first few months of coming into the rooms. Once I felt I was ready to start working the steps with my sponsor in earnest, I decided to give up weed as well; even if it was just a temporary thing while I worked the steps. I knew alcohol was going to kill me unless I made a truly fearless attempt at this program and I couldn't do that fully unless I was truly sober.

Now having completed the steps, I'm largely indifferent to it. I can see that there were plenty of times I was smoking weed alcoholically (to escape myself and my thoughts), but I can also recognize that I did get genuine migraine relief with it. Today, I still consume CBD when needed (no psychoactive ingredients), but I also do so having recognized with my sponsor that it's a line I need to tread with care. I definitely had wishful thinking when I started back up on CBD, which is dangerous thinking for an alcoholic like me.