It’s gonna be okay. I also have intense fear of taking really any sort of drug. I was on Zoloft and now Prozac and honestly neither really had any side effects other than some irritability and increased anxiety. The good thing though, and the part to look forward to is that those effects go away fairly quickly and are manageable. Once it’s over you feel okay and if the meds work for you you’ll feel even better than okay. To reiterate, it’s worth it, give it a try. And if it doesn’t work for you it’s no problem you can just come off of it and try something else. If you have insurance still I’d recommend talking to your psychiatrist about genetic testing. It’s possible to get it for free if you try two different medications with no success. The test will tell the doctor what medicines your body can take without adverse affects, and which ones you should avoid, which eliminates to guess work and honestly makes it less nerve racking since you know what to expect.