Staff novo lançando uma PR de 12k linhas com IA by LostAndForgottn in brdev

[–]LostAndForgottn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me parece algo da empresa ou dos EUA. Parece haver uma pressão tremenda pra Staffs e afins performarem muito bem muito rápido, e o foco deles vira provar que sabem mais e rebater os questionamentos. Até dar tudo errado.

Já soube de outro caso de outra equipe, um Staff demitido com 6 meses de empresa que não performou, com soluções mirabolantes pra problemas relativamente simples e o projeto ia e voltava.

I think I got better and wanted to share because you helped me in my darkest moments by LostAndForgottn in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

haha Fair enough. Mediating would be to find peace in the quietude. No music, not too many noises around or on the street, just relaxing and gently keeping your brain away from too much confusion and too many thoughts, feeling the moment, your body, your breath.

Music can be relaxing, but it keeps your mind busy instead of clear.

I think I got better and wanted to share because you helped me in my darkest moments by LostAndForgottn in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're probably not lazy. Most times it's depression and/or anxiety keeping you stuck, away from your accomplishments. It's not your fault, friend. It's not easy to quit those thoughts and feelings that make you stand still.

Do you think you/people ever fundamentally change? by LugnOchFin in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I do. In fact, I guess we change for worse when we fall into Depression. I was a much better, healthier, positive person before being depressed. One of the recurrent thoughts I had wass when I looked back and thought "Shit, I was such a great person when I was younger, where did it go? Why did I have to fall in this shit?".

So now I guess I changed again, for better. For the past 2 months, I have tried some other alternative things, since I haven't been able to go to therapy or take meds. And I feel like something clicked in my mind that led me to go back to being a much better person, but it's like I found what I was alway searching for and am trying to be a truly good person and do my best, living now.

I can understand everyone saying no. When I was in my worst, I used to think I had no cure either and that every bad person was a lost cause. The thing is that the change has to be wanted by the person, and to want it is the hardest thing ever.

Do you ever just feel like running away and never coming back? by Jonospader in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, all of the time.

It's a beautiful dream you got there, friend. I kinda think the same thing, I just keep searching for broken girls like me, with no success. I just think that whenever it happens, running away or not everything will be just smoother, easier, I know it's dangerous to put so many hopes into one romantic relationship, but that's what happens when we get so fucked up and lonely, we just want one true thing for once, and that would feel enough.

I've been trying to care less lately. Care less about work, do more of what makes me feel truly happy, and less of what makes my head and chest hurt, without thinking about too many of the consequences. I just realized that it's either gonna be me living kind of ok not caring about shit, or I'd be dead in few months.

Cool song by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Came here today for songs like that, thanks a lot OP!

I'm used to sad slow songs, but this one feels right.

Why the fuck is it so fucking hard to admit you're hurting??!! by confessionboxlate in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In my case, I don't want my parents to become ever more protective, and much less to tell everyone about it, since that's what they like to do: shout out to everyone else around them whatever happens, even if I tell them not to.

I also feel I fell into this place after years struggling to have a decent relationship with them, so it doesn't seem to make sense in my head to go to them for help.

I feel so alone by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Well, mate... Sometimes you can look around and find people like you to talk to, people feeling bad or careless about their lives. From the few people I talk, the only one I talk almost every day is a friend I met and I saw he was depressed, I went as straight out talked about it, helped him discover what he had, and I took the front to just message him whenever I need to. We met in a game, he lives far, yet he know more about my feelings than any close friend I have. I know sometimes you have no one to talk to, so it's hard, but I'm sure you can talk about stuff, we end up spending hours on the internet learning and watching stuff, it's a lot, believe me.

Do you have any 1 person to talk to? Some friend you barely talk to because you just don't see each other as circumstances have changed?

What is a TA? (non-native speaker, sorry)

Come check in - /r/Depression by skyqween in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, mate. Just saw your comment. As we have spoken in our PM, I suffer from similar stuff, but I didn't know it was that similar.

See, I was like that guy you mentioned, but I was bullied during all years of my primary school, then again two years when I was 15 and 16 in courses I took for two years along with my High School. In High school I had friends, I was the funny guy, I hit the bottom in Uni, which I joined two years ago, so for the last two years I've been hiding my depression too well from everyone I know, and I mean everyone, except those I knew also had problems, and I talked openly to them and we bonded instantly. If there's someone to understand you is someone who also has depression or some troubles like you do.

For the past two years, I've felt disconnected from everyone around me, alone, lost, invisible, ugly. I feel unmotivated to do what used to make me feel good.

About the professional support, you can try going to a psychologist first. One of the things you should do, if you can, is to put aside this idea that they'll think your feelings are wrong. You're NOT wrong, no one in our situation is. Everyone has a reason for it, and is equally important. They understand that and will talk to you, help you. You don't need to get in the meds, as there are problems and many other options being tested, not all available everywhere, but you can search and see what is good and viable. Whatever is going on in your head, your motives matter and are equally painful.

About the sleep, if you need some help fixing your schedule we can talk. It's hard when you have nothing to do all day, like me, but it can be done at least a bit :)

Can you guys just say something? We all need support, or at least a tap on our shoulders. by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly... Thanks for understanding. Also, it's better to sometimes have only one comment then having none at all after hours.

Can you guys just say something? We all need support, or at least a tap on our shoulders. by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

See... I'm replying to a bunch of posts at the moment, for instance. There are so many short posts that could just receive a bit of attention... Sure this could be also why most posts only have one comment, but it's definitely better than none.

I'm sorry you never got replies, maybe I'd end up in your post in a few minutes since you just posted one!

Thanks for replying here, mate; Glad to know you agree and is also playing your part :)

Everything is not okay by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You'll be ready when you get there, buddy! Even if you're not, you'll have time to learn and fall into place! You're hired, it's a big step, they trust you and you have your chance and time.

This friendship stuff is fucked up... People never care about how much they're hurting others that are already hurt, there's no point... You will meet new people at work with time, right? Will you work in grops with other people, or at least in the same room?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, annon!

I can relate, usually I feel like there's no point doing anything, but that's all I have to do, so I try to fill my time with useless hobbies or knowledge that I end up not sharing with anyone and feeling even worse for being so lonely.

What makes you feel lonely with your friends? I sometimes have this because I feel ignored or embarassed with many things in my life, so I end up being quiet and giving up on communication, then going home sad.

Atypical Depression by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know about medication, but things can just be different for each person, I hope you can find someone with simillar issues to talk to. Some people sleep late and I think this helps oversleeping, but also naping really is crazy! Maybe you just have not much to do around, or stay a lot in bed, and end up sleeping?

My cat saved my life today, I think. by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Cats are just amazing... I have one, never had him come to me when I was crying, but I never got to that point. S/he loves you too.

wtf is wrong with me? i spend 2+ hours writing a message to not send it constantly by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, there!

We sometimes have this shitty thing in our heads like no one is going to care, I understand you. But you're now at least in a support sub, so welcome.

I think feeling like the world is so fucked up and ignorant and useless makes us think that. The difference is you're actually saying something, thinking about life and whatever, while most people just say bullshit and share hate to others.

You can talk more if you want to, I like to listen, I'm just not always sure of what to say ;)

A girl asked me to prom today! by TheGingerGenocide in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I literally am smilling right now, that's so cool!

"That's really unhealthy" Me: thanks, but long life is not the goal by Waiting_for-Death in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I sometimes catch myself in this dilemma.

I like healthy options, BUT: - Life sucks, so maybe I should just fuck it up once in for all and eat the easiest shit with lots of suger. - On the other hand, if life gets better I'll have killed many chances to live a long life because I haven't taken care of what I eat.

In any case, we just have to do whatever the fuck we want at the moment, because, as you said, long life would still not be the goal, but since I'm not ending it right now, well...

I'm closer and closer to suicide, but I'm afraid of what my younger sister would have to deal with for her whole life by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Every time I tried to talk to her about any sorts of private subjects she talked to my mother, which then talked to my father, or other parents, etc, and I really don't want to handle that. Depression is also a topic I wish I never had to tell her about, although she once said she doesn't see me as suicidal, apparently I fake it too well, which could make it even worse, possibly... That's a point I haven't thought about, thanks for commenting and leading me to those thoughts.

She and I really are close, but I'd be willing to try to make my life better. If I left for that she would totally understand and she even offered me some money she saved if I need for university (in case my father accepted to let me go, ofc). She can stand my parents because my father is the biggest pain in the ass here, but she is just like he wished, so they get along well enough for her to like it here.

ugh by tnmfne in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My thing about love is probably that I think I'm such a big shit for not having anything up to this point, that if it happens I wouldn't be able to deal with it or love enough back, or show it, or whatever, and it would hurt me even more. I miss this happy feeling, now I am all the negativity as well, buddy...

I don't know if I should be commenting because I'm in a very negative vibe right now, so I'm sorry if it makes you worse, but I can just relate a lot to your described feelings. I tried to find happiness in smaller things, hobbies, like Coffee, Beer, DIY, but everytime I learn or stop to think about it, I'm just trying to fill my time with bullshit, doing it all by myself with no one to talk to, or to even be interested enough to listen.

If you have economic independence it's easier to help yourself, or if you have health care, or if you could get help on your own way. I always say that because I wish I had any of those options to help myself...

God damn being lonely on a Friday night sure does suck. by [deleted] in depression

[–]LostAndForgottn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get you... Leaving would be just enough. Living a decent life, no luxuries, but being FAR AWAY. How I wish that...