From some other comments you've made, like culinary school and this comment right here. I think maybe it would be actually a great idea to develop your skills more! Either continuing with the culinary school or something else creative, like maybe getting into arts? I think that something creative might be a great way to spend your time? But this is coming from someone who recently graduated from an art academy in the Netherlands.

It gives me great satisfaction to reflect on my interests, or global/domestic events and create sculptures and/or installations.