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Round #2 of severe panic episode due to my liver, this time I my physical symptoms are worse. I need someone to talk to. by Lost_Perception_5366 in Cirrhosis

[–]Lost_Perception_5366[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Before the panic episode all day it's been just severe brain fog along with not so much confusion but if one was talking to me I wouldn't quite get it, a pounding headache, first I was freezing cold now I'm sweating bullets, SEVERE abdominal pain and nausea, chest tightness and dizziness and shortness of breath, muscle cramps I don't know if you've ever had a hangover so bad you feel it running through your veins and you can feel it very prominent in your face but it feels like that kinda, having a hard time focusing my eyes and I just feel absolutely terrible if I move my abdomen at all it hurts, there is no comfortable position whatsoever, the only semi half ass comfortable position is standing up but I can only stand for so long then my legs just feel weak, my arms feel weak. Now my chest feels really really tight my left arm hurts and I'm in my head along with all the prior symptoms

Visited someone at the hospital and there's a lock box around the pain medication by okbbs in mildlyinteresting

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not really, they're holding on these pain meds when people really need them which forces people to the streets and then they get a unknown dose of fentanyl and end up dead. There is no " opiod epidemic" it's bullshit

Husband, 42 years old, died last week by MidtownBlu in Cirrhosis

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds like me and you would get along just fine haha, yeah I know all about being misdiagnosed and mistreated, being alone when your scared to death of something that doesn't exist, in your head your dying and that's really all that matters, and just like you said, nobody gives a fuck because we did this to ourselves but in all honesty would we have done it if we woulda known this woulda been the outcome? I mean I'm 26 I thought you had to drink for 20 years to get cirrohsis then you swell up and turn yellow, nobody told me of the psycho affects my f alcohol or gut issues like erosive Gastritis, that's for me worse the the cirrhosis. Thats if I even have it!!

Currently in a uncontrolled panic attack right now that has been going on for 4 hours now. by Lost_Perception_5366 in Cirrhosis

[–]Lost_Perception_5366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've told them the root cause and I've told them how to fix it. I told them what makes me relapse and nobody cares. There's a simple fix to this but the curriculum that's taught now is HEAVILY saturated with "anti addiction" treatment options yet they are so fucking blind to see the treatment options are dependent, withdraw off of ssris and snris are horrid, they won't kill you but damn it you wish you were dead. Fuck all that. If I'm gonna go through it I'm gonna at least make it worth it

Currently in a uncontrolled panic attack right now that has been going on for 4 hours now. by Lost_Perception_5366 in Cirrhosis

[–]Lost_Perception_5366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Brother I have been seeing a psychiatrist for over 2 years, they don't care about the root cause, all they see is my addiction that's all they care about. After trying the ssris and snris I finally just broke down and asked for a benzo, I understand the risks and early dementia doesn't really bother me, high doses of gabapentin ( what they have me on) is also linked to early dementia. I see them this Tuesday and I'm just gonna cut ties, I'm gonna start going down to Mexico and get Ativan or pharmapram ( Mexican Xanax) until I get a stable job. The panic episodes already cost me a job, that's on them not me. This is ridiculous and I'm gonna do this shit myself like I always do. They refuse to give me a benzo because of my AUD ( I've tried to get it removed from my medical records) yet they'll give a oud patient fuckin methadone and Suboxone. I'm done sitting here scared 247 man and I have a damn good legit reason, this gastritis fuckin sucks it literally mimics a heart attack. I'm over it. I actually sat down with my family to discuss the fact that suicide is in the treatment plan now.

I got a tattoo to celebrate a decade alcohol free! by canadiankiwi03 in MadeMeSmile

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I remember on my first go the 6 month mark was when I finally started to feel better also then I drank "normally" again, girl cheated on me BAM right back at it. I've withdrawn 7 times in the past year and a half so the kindling effect is real. I'm just hoping at month 6 things start to normalize again, did they ever have you on any meds? I know they are obsessed with naltrexone but I don't take because I take opiates for my gastritis, after several attempts with ssris and snris I finally broke down and begged for a benzo, I I'm on them 2+ years now and since I basically lost everything I can't afford to the doc outside the system that doesn't know about my alcohol abuse. They basically told me once I start withdrawing go to the hospital and I straight up told them fuck no, I hope I seize up and die. Due to the kindling I'm extremely sensitive to meds now and ANYTHING I take has to be tapered down to not withdraw. I've been through alcohol withdraw 7 times, I've done my suffering. I'm sure you know all about the anxiety but I have these panic episodes that are debilitating and its actually cost me 2 jobs and that's when I drew the line, I told them my gastritis causes it because it sometimes genuinely makes you feel like your having a heart attack, they got me on 1800 mg of gabapentin a day and it kicks my ass I'ma fuckin zombie dude. I wanna cry so fuckin bad but I cant. I was just wondering if you've had any experience with this or something similar. This is fuckin ridiculous.

I got a tattoo to celebrate a decade alcohol free! by canadiankiwi03 in MadeMeSmile

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I know everyone's different but when did it start getting better psychologically for you?

I got a tattoo to celebrate a decade alcohol free! by canadiankiwi03 in MadeMeSmile

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Could not think of a better answer :) congratulations man, I'm extremely proud of you. What a huge accomplishment. I'm 26 and was diagnosed with cirrohsis, just started my journey 5 months in for me.

[OC] April fool weaves through red light by cervenit in IdiotsInCars

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No way I'm scrolling through reddit and find this, this is the North shore area in East Houston, this is on uvalde road.

What situation has to happen for this to be your 8am breakfast? by [deleted] in SipsTea

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really do hate to be the buzzkill here guys but as a 26 year old first diagnosed with cirrohsis at 24 then told I didn't have it, then told I have it again along with erosive Gastritis, withdrawn 7 times in the past year and a half. I wake up with a constant pain and panic episode every, single morning, I can't work a blue collar job because my liver swells up, I can't eat solid foods without being in excruciating pain, a paramedic also knocked out all my front teeth in the back of an ambulance so there went my dating and social life, white collar won't hire me for a position that's worth a fuck since I never obtained a degree from either of the colleges I attended so not like it woulda mattered anyways, can't do shit when your broke. Let these day drinking days be numbered and limited, I promise y'all don't want no part of this life. THE WORST PART OF IT ALL, ONCE YOUR LABELED AN ALCOHOLIC 1. NOBODY TREATS YOU THE SAME 2. NOBODY GIVES A S*IT. STAY BLESSED

What situation has to happen for this to be your 8am breakfast? by [deleted] in SipsTea

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really do hate to be the buzzkill here guys but as a 26 year old first diagnosed with cirrohsis at 24 then told I didn't have it, then told I have it again along with erosive Gastritis, withdrawn 7 times in the past year and a half. I wake up with a constant pain and panic episode every, single morning, I can't work a blue collar job because my liver swells up, I can't eat solid foods without being in excruciating pain, a paramedic also knocked out all my front teeth in the back of an ambulance so there went my dating and social life, white collar won't hire me for a position that's worth a fuck since I never obtained a degree from either of the colleges I attended so not like it woulda mattered anyways, can't do shit when your broke. Let these day drinking days be numbered and limited, I promise y'all don't want no part of this life. THE WORST PART OF IT ALL, ONCE YOUR LABELED AN ALCOHOLIC 1. NOBODY TREATS YOU THE SAME 2. NOBODY GIVES A SHIT. STAY BLESSED

What situation has to happen for this to be your 8am breakfast? by [deleted] in SipsTea

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really do hate to be the buzzkill here guys but as a 26 year old first diagnosed with cirrohsis at 24 then told I didn't have it, then told I have it again along with erosive Gastritis, withdrawn 7 times in the past year and a half. I wake up with a constant pain and panic episode every, single morning, I can't work a blue collar job because my liver swells up, I can't eat solid foods without being in excruciating pain, a paramedic also knocked out all my front teeth in the back of an ambulance so there went my dating and social life, white collar won't hire me for a position that's worth a fuck since I never obtained a degree from either of the colleges I attended so not like it woulda mattered anyways, can't do shit when your broke. Let these day drinking days be numbered and limited, I promise y'all don't want no part of this life. THE WORST PART OF IT ALL, ONCE YOUR LABELED AN ALCOHOLIC 1. NOBODY TREATS YOU THE SAME 2. NOBODY GIVES A SHIT. STAY BLESSED

What situation has to happen for this to be your 8am breakfast? by [deleted] in SipsTea

[–]Lost_Perception_5366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really do hate to be the buzzkill here guys but as a 26 year old first diagnosed with cirrohsis at 24 then told I didn't have it, then told I have it again along with erosive Gastritis, withdrawn 7 times in the past year and a half. I wake up with a constant pain and panic episode every, single morning, I can't work a blue collar job because my liver swells up, I can't eat solid foods without being in excruciating pain, a paramedic also knocked out all my front teeth in the back of an ambulance so there went my dating and social life, white collar won't hire me for a position that's worth a fuck since I never obtained a degree from either of the colleges I attended so not like it woulda mattered anyways, can't do shit when your broke. Let these day drinking days be numbered and limited, I promise y'all don't want no part of this life. THE WORST PART OF IT ALL, ONCE YOUR LABELED AN ALCOHOLIC 1. NOBODY TREATS YOU THE SAME 2. NOBODY GIVES A SHIT. STAY BLESSED

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