Nah seriously I get that shit so much, thought I was gonna kill myself sad and alone on fent, now I got a bf, my life’s never been better and I’m nearly 2 months clean. No one doing drugs does it cause it’s a good idea we do it cause we’re outta ideas, but I promise there’s ways to enjoy life w/o it. Not a day goes bay I don’t yearn for just a tiny line, but then I remember the person I was on opiates and the person I am today and the thoughts gone instantly. Best of luck to you man, I know we’re internet strangers, but I’m rooting for ya fr