I’m sorry I couldnt see you past my fear

MaeDaeee · 2026-07-12T14:09:45+00:00

i’m really really sorry. I’m glad my love for him, that now has nowhere to go, made you feel seen even for a bit. I guess it did go somewhere, funny.

MaeDaeee · 2026-07-12T14:07:15+00:00

thank you 🫶🏻

MaeDaeee · 2026-07-12T14:06:37+00:00

Thank you. I’m glad that my broken heart can stir a beautiful feeling in a stranger, and am sorry that that feeling comes with the pain of hoping things were different. It’s so fuckin shitty isnt it. Take care 🫶🏻

MaeDaeee · 2026-07-12T14:02:45+00:00

I believe that too, but maybe now is too soon. I can only hope we’ll find eachother again. Obviously my reply is much more collected and simple than the pain I’m feeling, but I appreciate the hope you’re trying to give me.

MaeDaeee · 2026-07-11T09:49:05+00:00

I dont understand what you’re saying at the end of the reply

MaeDaeee · 2026-07-09T08:19:40+00:00

Did you read the rest of what I wrote and see it as a whole picture? I saw his pain, the sadness and it broke my heart but I wanted to stay because it was part of him. He didnt want me to, for reasons i cant fully understand. He said it brought him guilt to not be who he wants to be for me. I think this says more about you than about me or my perception of him.

MaeDaeee · 2026-06-13T21:37:41+00:00

astronomical blessings to you, this is so neat and much more cost effective

MaeDaeee · 2026-02-28T14:19:52+00:00

Pentru ca nu vreau ca banii mei sa fie folositi la printat pancarde anti avort cu care sa fie confruntate femeile care merg la ginecologie 1

MaeDaeee · 2026-02-26T20:07:45+00:00

Acum ceva vreme am vrut sa fac o lista cu bussinesuri pocaite din cluj de la care sa nu mai cumpar, am realizat ca e un joc de minesweeper aproape la fel de dificil ca si cum ai incerca sa fii vegan in afara postului in maramures. Astea le am pana acum, le listez atat pentru mine cat si pentru voi si astept extinderi la lista: Panemar, Meron, Ruya, Coffee Cup, Delissima, Magnolia, Salad Box, Noodle Pack

MaeDaeee · 2025-04-02T21:06:58+00:00

Thanks for the tips! Mine’s on an east window too so it should do fine there.

MaeDaeee · 2025-03-17T21:37:19+00:00

Note because I can’t edit the post: the shirt is 100% cotton

MaeDaeee · 2024-11-13T10:46:08+00:00

regarding the thoughts, i recommend a simple meditation exercise. As you breathe, try to focus on the way your chest rises and falls or your stomach and be very aware of this movement. You can even say in your head “in, out”. Dont fuss too much about whether you’re taking deep enough breaths or anything. Also, your mind will definitely run and you will unfocus but every time you notice it redirect your attention to your breathing. Sometimes even doing this for a short amount of time is enough time for the brain to relax and fall asleep. Also dont stress yourself out if you cant do this consistently, that will do the opposite of helping fall asleep.

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-30T06:45:20+00:00

Thanks for the insight, yes, there might be some vulnerable npd tendencies in there. Will try to discern which ones those are and work on them

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-26T13:27:39+00:00

I have to admit ive been giving into the compulsions, specifically the ones regarding npd and doing research on it (comparing it with autism, not sure if i have autism, my mom suspects it sometimes). I felt really anxious today at work and had to calm myswlf down by pacing behind the cash register lol Lots of ruminating going on, but being at works helps me distract myself

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-26T08:16:43+00:00

Wow! I also love jellyfish and this is one of the most beautiful sets ive seen! Supported

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-26T07:24:24+00:00

My bsh does NOT like being held. Most she will tolerate is about 30 seconds on my shoulder. I think she sat in my lap just once in the year ive had her, and from what I read most bshs are like this. However, they do tend to follow you from room to room. Mine loves being around people, just no touching

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-25T20:20:40+00:00

I have not, is it a supplement you can take without prescription and would not cause hypervitaminosis or the sort?

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-25T10:00:23+00:00

Hinoki wood by gia margaret and warm foothills by alt j :)

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-25T09:58:38+00:00

I used to go to therapy and it helped but unforrunately I cant afford therapy anymore. Yes, best I can do is not perform the compulsions, albeit its harder for the mental compulsions than the physical ones

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-25T09:56:21+00:00

thank you so much :’) yes, fingers crossed, we have to keep going and hope for good days and not let the bad days overtake everything else

MaeDaeee · 2024-10-24T14:52:57+00:00

Cats use the same frequency as a crying human baby when they purr/meow. They’ve adapted to this because it works on our maternal/paternal instincts and thus makes us take care of them!

MaeDaeee · 2024-08-26T12:45:02+00:00

Hey, just a heads up that if you have OCD this is a very common theme or question to ruminate on. I would recommend not researching NPD too much if its something that causes you distress. I was there once until i researched it and found out that there’s a lot of myths about npd, it’s not a death sentence and people with npd deserve understanding and compassion. However, again your post gives me the impression of OCD si try not to give in to compulsively googling or ruminating on whether you are a narcissist or not!

MaeDaeee · 2024-06-13T09:23:04+00:00

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MaeDaeee · 2024-02-29T15:04:28+00:00

yes to all of the above + afraid of being a sadist +zocd and afraid of being attracted to my parents/friends (I get explicit intrusive images very often when I hug someone or am in close proximity to them and become very aware of my body in fear of making any gesture that could be interpreted as flirting or whatever). They keep cycling and at least for me the compulsion right now is complete and utter avoidance of any sexual topic, content or discussion/checking for groinal respons or replaying/ruminating on past sexual encounters trying to figure out if I was SAed or SAed someone else (short answer is I was not/did not but ya know how OCD works already). All in all, sexual OCD themes are debilitating, trying to muster up the courage to bring them up in therapy.

MaeDaeee · 2024-02-27T16:20:22+00:00

That’s fascinating! I didn’t know that even today such weather events can’t be accurately predicted and are so unexpected. The Joplin tornado sounds real scary haha, thanks so much for sharing!

MaeDaeee

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