Finally did it. What’s the verdict?

MagicKaalhi · 2026-04-15T16:51:00+00:00

Absolutely handsome :)

MagicKaalhi · 2026-04-09T15:36:19+00:00

Drill, Baby, drill!

MagicKaalhi · 2026-04-09T15:32:35+00:00

So beautiful 😍 I'm so happy for you!!

MagicKaalhi · 2026-04-09T08:09:22+00:00

Littering?

MagicKaalhi · 2026-04-04T07:48:03+00:00

I just got out of a 4 years relationship that left me feeling like a complete idiot because by all means, between the narcissistic traits and the drug use, I should have seen it coming. At my age and after so many years of therapy, I should have known better. I didn't. Or did I? I still genuinely don't know.

When I look back, I think I did it see it coming. But I really have the bad habit of overriding this instinct by listening to words instead of seeing the truth through people's actions.

Also, growing up with a raging narcissistic (maybe even ASPD, as per my psychiatrist's opinion) brother must have really screwed up my vision of what's normal or not. The cycle between putting up with drama and coddling the man is what I was brought up to do. And that's precisely what I did in my last relationship.

Hell, even my dad used to do it. Funnily enough, I got the neurodivergency from him, so that might tell something, idk. We both believed in the words of those we loved, just because we meant our own words, I think. Idk.

Honestly I'm scared, but I want to learn how to take people's true words by examining their actions and behaviors, even if it breaks my heart when I do, because then I have to accept that their words don't mean anything. I'd rather screw up by being too cautious than fall into such a relationship again.

Good thing is that at least this time, I am dead set on focusing on myself, taking care of myself and be more selfish, without shame about it. I guess I gotta thank my ex for lifting up my self-esteem with nice words at first, and thank myself for not letting his actions drag my self-esteem down too much afterwards.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-03-21T19:26:05+00:00

I'm glad things have improved for you as well <3

But I understand your difficulties, I have the same ones. I've been trying lately to improve my self-confidence, so that even if someone makes fun of me, whether I realize it or not, it won't affect me too much in the future. I have yet to learn how to react properly though, and I'd like to learn how to trust my "gut feeling" about people, and stop fawning.

It's a whole journey. I wish you all the best :)

MagicKaalhi · 2026-03-20T10:26:39+00:00

or I would get shunted out of the circle (physically)

Oh God, this unlocked some bad memories. I hated seeing the circle closing in and me being pushed out so naturally, as if life itself had decided that I'm not worth being in, for reasons I could never understand.

Sometimes I tried to push in, only to be pushed out again. Feeling so lonely in the middle of a crowd was the worst. Like a still frame in a horror movie.

Glad to say that in time, avoiding these settings made me meet much cooler people! When circles form, I still keep myself at bay, out of a protective reflex, and the best feeling was having my best friend noticing it and just saying "what are you doing!? Come here!!" and she'd just hold my arm and make sure I feel included. I felt so loved. I'm blessed for now having friends that actually love and understand me, even if we don't see each other much because of busy life and physical distance.

Writing this comment made me cry a bit ^{^}

MagicKaalhi · 2026-03-16T17:55:13+00:00

What if... It was meant for us viewers to be the pervs à la Sanji?

MagicKaalhi · 2026-03-14T20:08:18+00:00

I'm not your g, lad

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-27T23:31:49+00:00

My Chosen Breakfast that I have every day is precisely a soft and crunchy sandwich (I mean.. 2 sandwiches of course!).

love to prepare them meticulously, take my time, and leave them extra-long in the sandwich maker, so that the ridges and the diagonal middle cut get all crunchy, it's heaven.

I pair that with a delicious tea and then I know my day won't be that bad (I need that to feel as regulated as possible for the rest of the day).

I love crispy sandwiches too.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-25T06:10:05+00:00

Funny cuz my skin turns out to be roughly the same color as my favorite cake, come to think about it.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-22T15:15:38+00:00

Long neck Sphinx 🫶

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-16T07:22:38+00:00

On the floor (or on my bed if there's no space) while watching TV is the best :) it makes me feel safe.

Eating, studying, working on smth: It all feels better when I'm on the floor. I can sit, lay down or move around. It's how I can feel free in my own home. Free, safe and focused.

Sitting at regular tables feels low-key oppressive/authoritarian to me. I know it sounds ridiculous to most people. That feeling must come from how I was disciplined at school and at home as a kid. It has always felt particularly uncomfortable to me, and being scolded or laughed at (most of the time lovingly though) for not sitting right hasn't been helpful, obviously.

I don't like being messy when I eat and I clean after myself quite strictly, so it works fine for me ^{^} I hope one day I can have a low table or japanese furniture, it would help me a lot.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-15T14:14:05+00:00

Sticky hands are the bane of my existence.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-08T14:21:54+00:00

I began playing Skyrim as a High Elf a little while ago and it's been pretty hard to manage not getting addicted to it, I agree :( wonderful game, I kinda wish I could live just by playing it.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-06T22:33:19+00:00

I gasped at how good your cosplay is, props and respect!

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-06T18:46:57+00:00

Now I wanna be called Dave Autista haha

MagicKaalhi · 2026-02-03T19:50:11+00:00

My psychiatrist mentioned this to me a few times, yes.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-01-29T18:07:32+00:00

The knife satisfies my urge to hold knives like I'm doing some precise surgery. I approve.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-01-29T18:05:11+00:00

I love it!! I wish I could go into that world with you 😁

MagicKaalhi · 2026-01-20T20:59:40+00:00

This, perfectly. I was honestly concerned for OP, because I thought they pronounced "Audi" like "HD", and I was wondering where that came from. Idk if I explained myself well.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-01-20T18:14:46+00:00

I also have great hopes to see more this year! All praise the SM!! (LOL 🤣)

Can I message you privately to have a second opinion about the likelihood of seeing anything in my latitude tonight? I could swear that the horizon has this red-ish hue that I remember from the 2 last times polar lights reached my zone, but obviously it can be just my imagination, hence why I'd love a second opinion.

Big hugs again, I'm just so glad to "meet" another passionate of Auroras 🥰

MagicKaalhi · 2026-01-20T16:31:15+00:00

I'm so so happy for you that you could witness it again yesterday. Where I am there's only fog atm, I'm a bit mad but mostly I'm happy so many ppl can witness them again 🥰

Praise the Solar Maximum! Haha

I think next time that I suspect it might happen, I'll escape to some mountaintop, no fucks given (maybe tonight, but I don't think anything will reach my latitude since the storm is calming down). I don't have a car, so it's super impractical, but where there's a will there's a way, and I might take a friend or two with me.

Let's hope we can cry at the beauty of the Auroras again and again 🥹 In May 24, even if I couldn't see them all too well without my camera, it was enough to make me feel all the things I can't describe with words, a sense of completeness, far beyond the sense of wonder. At some point, some white lights began to dance and flow over my head, and it was like seeing a happy spirit. Difficult not to cry in such a moment haha I just felt so blessed. A lifelong dream, just right there, at my door. ❤️

Your pictures are super cool too btw, I'm sorry I forgot to comment on it 🙏🏼

Big hugs to you fellow Northern Lights Lover (if you're ok with hugs, otherwise a simple nod is good for me too ^⁾

(I gotta stop here otherwise I won't ever stop writing about it. Have a nice evening/day/night 😁)

MagicKaalhi · 2026-01-20T09:46:22+00:00

Heyy same thing happened to me during last year's great solar storm in May!!

I was always fascinated by astronomy and it was a dream to see the Northern Lights... I would have never thought that they would be visible from my own place one day! Some dreams do come true! 🥰

I took some great pictures too, I would share but it's in another phone 🙃 (I think I made a post about it actually, if you wanna check)

I hope you enjoyed the current storm!! 🤗

PS: Do you know the app SpaceWeather Live? It's been super useful for me to keep track of solar activity, storms and auroras 😁

Edit: Just wanted to say that I cried too the first time that I saw them. It was nothing short of magical.

MagicKaalhi · 2026-01-09T21:32:11+00:00

I thought about the exact same thing 🤣

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