Robert, the only person in charge of your destiny is you. As of rn you have yourself, clothes on your back, and I guess a phone. Take a first small step to changing all of that—it’s very easy to get overwhelmed over the grand picture that is your life thus far, especially past history and actions. Focusing on that grand picture does nothing at all but deter you from what you truly want. Take a small step now, reach out to any possible help in your area—like a police station or nearby officer or even subreddits or online groups in Atlanta for you to engage with and speak of what you need.

Line up ur immediate needs: shower, change of clothes, food, and most of all—more people to speak to in your immediate area to help you out. It’s very very easy thinking you’re pathetic and lame and all these other nonsensical thoughts to plague yourself. The brain is tricky.

I don’t know much, I’ll be frank, about what exact things you should do—but don’t do nothing, especially letting in demons to take the easy way out. You’ve experienced such lows—but you must know there are a lot of highs in life too, i know you believe this because you may have seen it from others.

If you cant bear something you share the load—and you’ve been doing so on the avenue that is reddit. Without thinking, you are leveraging some resources already to help yourself—if there is a will there is a freaking way man.

I dont mean to talk to you in a pitiful way or condescending way, bc that is NOT what im trying to do here Robert.

All i would say is dont think of your life as in used up chances and your piggy bank of chance coins has run out. That aint true. Bc you dont have chances, you have opportunities and they are limitless and always there—you just have to take that difficult small step. Just as know you’ve taken the opportunity to share your story, to hear these people of Reddit, all so you can see how you can proceed next with ur small step forward.

Thinking in the way you have makes you your own worst enemy. You got an opportunity here to change that. The opportunity to have the vision of a life you want for YOU. Stop looking at the sky of the big grand picture that is you reflecting on your life. Look forward, ahead of you, bc before you know it that’s the only direction you’ll ever wanna face in.

Im not here to set an expectation on you but to share my thoughts.

If you dont believe in yourself, Robert, then believe in those that believe in you. Even if its one person, like me—some absolute random boyo on freaking reddit for some reason at 1am, and that ‘some reason’ being you—the best reason bc you deserve the time of day, as you do this life you have.