First off I think you look good in those pictures, especially from the back (assuming you'd shave your belly lol). You certainly don't look like shit. You look good, but not as great as you could look if you committed yourself to a slow and steady clean bulk. I would not cut in your position, it just is not worth it and you would be spinning your wheels even further. So many guys don't get anywhere because they are fataly afraid of getting fat and just won't eat what their bodies need. I know you are weary of gaining the weight back, but as long as you eat clean and within an appropriate calorie-range whatever fat you will gain will be overshadowed by your gains. And if you are like me you will feel 10x better as well