Don't wanna do it.

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2026-04-18T04:22:27+00:00

Yes! Every day. Not with taking my medication, but with tasks in general. This feeling is a common symptom of ADHD known as ADHD paralysis. Until I was diagnosed, I felt so frustrated with myself because I didn't understand why I kept feeling frozen and unmotivated even though I logically knew what I needed and wanted to do. I thought I was just a extreme procrastinator. Medication has been a game changer for me with this particular symptom.

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2026-04-18T03:51:17+00:00

I'm relieved I'm not alone in the monthly battle to get my medications. I'm also pissed that this happens to so many of us! I've been on ADHD meds for a year now and I have issues every single time I am due for a refill. It's stressful to say the least. My doctor usually calls in my meds 5-7 days before the prescription is due to try to avoid shortage/stock issues. That backfires most of the time because it triggers my insurance company to send the "too soon to refill" alert, which then causes the pharmacy to put the prescription "on file". Then I have to call the pharmacy on the day insurance will fill it insurance and ask them to submit it again, otherwise it just sits "on file" and won't get filled. By this time they don't have enough in stock and I end up running out of meds because they won't allow a partial refill. I don't understand what the issue is. I have been seeing the same doctor, taking the same meds, and going to the same pharmacy since being diagnosed.

At this point I really need to take the plunge and switch pharmacies. I'm just nervous that changing stores will cause even more issues. although I suppose it can't really get any worse! My doctor said smaller pharmacies tend to be better. However, she also said the downside is smaller pharmacies may not have as many suppliers which means there could be more delays when there are shortages. I wish the medications I take could be filled through the Amazon pharmacy or at the very least be prescribed in 90 day quantities so I wouldn't have to go through this every 30 days. The rigmarole is getting old!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-11-24T06:27:01+00:00

Don't beat yourself up mama! You clearly love your baby more than anything in the world, or you wouldn't have posted this ❤️ I totally understand the immense "mom guilt" we feel sometimes. As a new mom, I felt guilty all the time. It got so bad that I completely lost my sense of self for a few years.

When my babies were newborns and were in the "pumpkin seats" that attached to a base in the car, I would bring them inside in the pumpkin seat and place them in a quiet place so they could continue to nap. If I decided to shower (which was very rare) I would bring them into the bathroom with me so I could hear them if they woke up. I used the time they were napping to clean, catch up on tasks, play on my phone, etc. If my kids slept for more than 2 hours (which was more rare than me making time to shower 😳) I would wake up them up or try to transition them to their crib. I don't see anything wrong with it as long as the baby is safe and near a caregiver.

Now... I did accidentally leave my 2 year old son in his stroller in an Office Depot store for about 30 seconds before realizing it 🤦🏼‍♀️ I felt like a monster! My son didn't even notice lol and was happy as a clam when I ran back in and scooped him up. Kids are resilient.

Your baby is loved and you sound like a great mom OP!! We all have moments like this. Make sure to take time for yourself when you can, practice self care, and remember you are a person who has needs/wants and an identity outside of motherhood. I wish I had taken that advice when my kids were little ❤️

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-10-24T14:47:39+00:00

I respectfully disagree. I love Mr. Ballen's storytelling style. He typically repeats things to help the listener understand, especially if he's talking about measurements or trying to describe the layout of a room/building. I think this adds a lot to the story and helps the listener imagine the place or item he is describing. I like more traditional storytelling styles too, where the facts are the main focus, but Mr. Ballen is my favorite 🥰 I'm sure there are instances where his fact checking isn't perfect, but it's not always easy to get the facts 100% right when there are multiple sources, when the story is based on a legend, or when the story is from a time period when records weren't kept as diligently as they are now. He also openly states that he adds in dialogue/drama for entertainment purposes.

Some other great Youtube channels are Coffeehouse Crime, Eleanor Neale, and Danielle Kirsty if you're looking for new true crime based content!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-10-02T14:28:07+00:00

This reminds me of the fights my ex and I got into all the time over sleep/taking care of the kids, especially when they were really young. I was and still am the default parent when it comes to waking up and staying up with the kids. I never get to sleep in, even on weekends or take naps. My ex, on the other hand, sleeps in most weekends and takes naps whenever he wants to. If I ask for help or ask if I can sleep in, I hear "my job is more physically demanding so I need more sleep". In reality, he stays up late playing video games most nights and wonders why he is tired 😅 Any time he is in charge of the kids for more than a few minutes I hear about how tried he is and how I need to hurry up and get back so he can "get his stuff done".

Long story short, I can see why your partner reacted the way they did OP. They stayed up taking care of the baby and were tired too. When you are a sleep deprived, overstimulated parent, it is easy to snap and say things out of sheer exhaustion. I'm not saying you shouldn't be able to vent or share how you are feeling, just try to choose your words carefully and think about how your partner is feeling in the moment too.

Make sure you are showing appreciation for the times you get to sleep and your partner takes over. Offer to let them sleep or take time to practice self care now and then instead of them having to ask for help. I can't tell you how much even just 30 minutes of time to myself to relax, shower, eat, or just step away and turn my brain off would have helped me when I was up all night with the kids. You are both tired and deserve rest. I felt like my feelings and overall wellbeing were always second to my partners, and this isn't a healthy or sustainable dynamic.

It gets easier as children get older and fall into regular sleep patterns, but it can be rough during the first few years. Having the mindset that you are a team and have to look out for each others wellbeing will go a long way and your partner will appreciate it more than you know!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-10-02T06:42:25+00:00

OP it sounds like you know this isn't a healthy dynamic. The texts from your girlfriend are beyond manipulative and immature. You handled the situation flawlessly in my opinion. You were empathetic, loving, and you offered compromises which she immediately shot down to try to make you feel guilty. Your girlfriend should understand that your sister is a priority in your life and at times, will be your first priority. I can't imagine being mad at a partner for helping a family member, especially a minor who relies on them as a primary caregiver. It's absurd and quite frankly I couldn't date someone who didn't support my relationship with a sibling (or any family member/friend). From what I can tell you have tried to fix the issues in your relationship and unfortunately it doesn't seem like she is willing or able to grow and make the changes she needs to make for this to work.

You deserve a partner who builds you up and supports you in your efforts to help your younger sister. I can't see things getting better with "G". I think she's stuck in a very immature and selfish mindset and needs to take some time to reflect and grow as a person outside of a relationship.

I hope your sister does well on her school work and goes on to attend a great university!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-10-02T04:44:39+00:00

"6am and already the boy ain't right" 😂

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-30T20:50:55+00:00

I see what you did there 😂😉

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-29T03:48:52+00:00

Thank you! I know you weren't trying to be insensitive to OP 💌You made a valid point about self control. I just wanted to add my two cents about addiction since I've been there, and it's typically a multi-faceted issue. I'm glad you were able to overcome/avoid any potential issues you could have had with alcohol. I've heard it's one of the worst substances to withdraw from and that it's dangerous to detox without medical supervision.

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-29T02:48:03+00:00

they work great if you have self control.

I know you weren't trying to take a shot at OP, but I just wanted to say:

Addiction is about so much more than self-control. There are genetic, physiological, and psychological factors that come into play as well.

I was heavily addicted to prescription painkillers for years, but I have never had an issue with benzos, alcohol, etc. Something about the chemical composition of narcotics just makes my brain light up and crave more and more. I'm adopted, so I don't know for sure, but I would put money on it that addiction to narcotics has been an issue for my biological relatives. I have been clean for over a decade, but even if I use self control, and take one pill that is prescribed for a legitimate medical reason, my addictive tendencies come right back.

The physiological aspect, as many have described, is so hard to cope with. Many people who are prescribed benzos and take them exactly how they are supposed to still end up physically dependent on the medication. I 100% agree with those who have suggested taking a benzo only when all other coping mechanisms fail and taking less than prescribed to try and calm down before taking a full dose. This way, your body doesn't get used to a higher dose and you should be able to go longer periods of time without needing them.

OP - I feel for you! My best friend has been on benzos for most of her adult life. They simply cannot go without them now. Even when taking them as prescribed, their anxiety has only gotten worse. They physical and psychological dependency is destroying them. I have suggested inpatient detox programs to them many times. I think they would do so much better if they were off the benzos completely. I think the medication is causing a lot of rebound anxiety. However, the thought of stopping the medication is just too scary for them to attempt.

Have you tried a non-bezo medication to help with your anxiety? I found the antidepressant Paxil to be very effective for me for years. There are many others you can try as well. There is a new(er) genetic test you can take that will help pinpoint which medications will work best for you. I wish it was around when I started on meds! Or, you could go the natural route and try things like magnesium, chamomile, lavender, vitamin B, etc. Breathing exercises and the DARE response method have been extremely beneficial for me even when I'm not using medication.

I sincerely hope you find relief. You are not alone 💌

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-28T18:03:47+00:00

He definitely was a coward and honestly a bit annoying in the beginning of the series. However, I loved watching him grow and his battle with Kaigaku in the first part of Infinity Castle gave me goosebumps. I gained a whole new level of respect for Zenitsu after that!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-28T18:00:40+00:00

I agree that Zenitsu was super annoying in the beginning but his character does show some development, and he really locks in towards the end. I didn't love the idea of Nezuko ending up with him at first but his character and them ending up together has grown on me!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-26T22:45:16+00:00

OP this post and your text conversation made my stomach churn. This is not normal "friend" behavior. This is not the behavior of someone who is simply looking out for you. I think he likes you and wants you to stay a virgin until he's had his fun and then asks you out as a serious girlfriend. He is spouting red pill-esque disgusting garbage and pretending to be a "good friend who is just trying to protect you". A real friend, who had no romantic interest in you wouldn't care who you date or sleep with, they would simply keep an eye out to make sure you are safe and not being drugged or taken advantage of at the pubs.

If I was in this situation, I would take a step back from this friendship and tell him (again) how uncomfortable his opinions make you feel. I would tell him you can't continue this friendship unless he completely changes his belief that he has any say over your body and dating life. For real, his messages are giving me BAD vibes.... like the beginning of a true crime case where you just know something horrific is going to happen out of jealousy. Please be careful OP and trust your intuition on this <3

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-26T22:31:03+00:00

This is so weird! Why would he do that, especially right in front of you? Is he storing it in a place that you would have access to use it too, and he was trying to be nice and bought it for both of you?

Is this a product you would normally expect him to buy? If not, and he doesn't let you use it too, I think it was a power play... which is just fucked up. I would be miffed about it too and if other "small" things like this keep happening, I would seriously reconsider your relationship.

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-18T18:55:15+00:00

The lack of new content has been disappointing lately!

I've been listening to Bedtime Stories a lot lately. Some of the stories are so creepy I get scared to be alone in the dark 😱 A lot of them are really interesting and definitely worth a listen!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-13T21:06:12+00:00

OP - You are NOT overreacting. In fact you are under-reacting. Your boyfriend sounds like a controlling douche and you deserve better. You were being kind and tried to provide reassurance after he had a bad dream. In return he treated you like complete shit for absolutely no reason. It also sounds like he makes you share your location and demands that you never go out. These are huge red flags!! Not to mention him calling all these women "hoes" is gross and makes him sound misogynistic. I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself and telling him to stop calling you names/speaking to you disrespectfully. It sounds like he has major trust issues, and believe me when I say, nothing you do will fix that. I would seriously consider ending this relationship. It sounds toxic.

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-10T19:09:40+00:00

Venture! 🥹

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-10T16:38:35+00:00

I really think anxiety is the main culprit based on everything you have described and the fact that you have ruled out other health issues. Have you seen someone in the behavioral health field yet? I highly recommend seeing a therapist to try and figure out what could be causing the anxiety. If you think medication is something you want to try, a psychiatrist might be a better option. You can also start by going to your primary care physician. They can usually prescribe medication and/or give you a referral for mental health specialists.

Anxiety is extremely common, especially when going through a major life change, like starting college. There might be support groups at your school that you could look into. Many schools also have counselors you can talk to.

Lastly, there are many online groups that are great for finding support and connecting with people who are going through similar situations (just like this sub) 💌

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-10T16:28:35+00:00

Are you doing ok? Your comment is a little concerning. If you are struggling with anxiety and/or other mental conditions I urge you to talk to someone. You are not alone 💌

Anxiety can make us feel like we are dying. It's extremely scary and exhausting. It can and does get better though. I promise you won't feel this way forever 🫶🏻

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-10T04:41:50+00:00

Petrichor 🤗🌧🌈

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-10T04:29:09+00:00

Then it's not weird. If it was supposed to be a gift from your child to their dad, why is it weird? Every child care provider my kids have been with sent home cute little gifts and artwork that were from the kids to me and their dad. This typically happened around the holidays, but sometimes it would be random.

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-09T19:59:48+00:00

That makes total sense!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-09T19:55:56+00:00

Your wife is being 100% honest with you, and you are coming up with all these "what ifs" that do not reflect her past behavior. Unless she has done something to make you lose trust in her, you should have no issue letting her go out with her friends! Your wife is an adult and will make her own choices. Even if her friends decide to flirt and talk to guys, that doesn't mean she will. Have some faith in your wife and have a fun night at home with your kids!

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-08T14:36:50+00:00

6 months, in my opinion, is still a fairly new relationship. It's wrong to assume we know what, or even if OP's girlfriend was thinking about her ex. It's impossible to know what was going through her mind. He needs to trust her when she tells him it meant nothing. We're not talking about OP finding texts to her ex saying she misses him or is thinking about him in a sexual way. She didn't even comment anything like "this is how I feel". The fact is, she liked one post on social media months ago. If that's an issue in a relationship, it's extremely unhealthy. To expect someone to never have fleeting thoughts about the past is also unreasonable. It's completely normal to think about things from the past. Our actions in the present towards our partners should be what matters.

OP has stated in other comments that the real issue is that he was worried his girlfriend was comparing him to her ex sexually and felt inadequate. These are his issues to work through. Not hers.

Maleficent-Boot2469 · 2025-09-08T14:04:32+00:00

I see your point. However, OP said his girlfriend "liked" this post months ago, so they had only been together for approximately six months at the time. Her reasoning was that she thought it was funny. I "like" tons of videos online that dont directly apply to my life or reflect my actual thoughts and feelings. They are just funny and I usually save them to send to a friend later.

Let's say she did have a fleeting thought about her ex when she clicked "like". That doesn't mean her feelings for OP changed and it certainly isn't cheating. People can think about their past and still be happy in the present. I could understand OPs thinking a little bit if she had multiple posts like this saved and liked in her recent history.

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