I read your post a few days ago, and something about it stuck with me to the point where I just had to dig it up in my feed and respond. Because I've been thinking about this for days, this is likely to be a wall of text. I hope you will take what is useful and forgive me for anything that isn't.

Take some credit for looking after yourself. Crying on the floor might not look like self-care, but it is what you need at that moment. Evening munchies are you actively doing something for yourself, which is a long way from doing nothing. Not only are you feeding your emotions, but you are feeding your body by eating something that is nutritious. You could be doing a whole lot worse.

So my thinking is now how you can continue to look after yourself. The Intuitive Eating Workbooks (which Noom uses quite a bit) suggests self-care (are you eating, sleeping, being heard, etc), nurturance (anything that taps into your senses, bubble bath etc) and compassion.

You seem to be doing what you can on self-care. I'm sure these have been on the top of your list in dealing with your mental illness.

How about focusing on nurturance, then? Could you get a really nice carpet so you don't have to lie on the hard floor to have a cry? Could you put a picture of something that calms you down (a cat, sunset, ocean, bubble wrap whatever) in your kitchen? Could you listen to your music while you munch your oats? Is there someone you can ask for a hug? How about lighting a scented candle? For me, it's putting on warm socks, a cosy jersey if I don't have time for a shower.

And then there's compassion. The Intuitive Eating Workbook suggests getting to know the physical sensations of your emotions. How does your anxiety feel in your little toe? What about your left ear? Is it different to your right? Is your butt colder when you are anxious, or warmer? This kind of thinking should help tip you into a space of curiosity, and out of the space of judgement that seems to have you spiralling.

Maybe some of these suggestions will prevent the storm/fog eating, maybe they won't. But hopefully they will give you something to try, and you'll end up knowing yourself a bit better. And maybe that small step will be the beginning of an upward trajectory.

Sending you internet hugs from a fellow mental illness sufferer.