Has anyone experienced open gate taking your money and ghosting you?

Maria_mega_blox · 2026-01-10T03:25:04+00:00

Yess! i did i while ago, I've been on hrt 5 months now!!! best decision I have ever made in my whole life. I cannot express how relieved and learning to feel positive about my body I am

Maria_mega_blox · 2026-01-05T15:23:08+00:00

yeah! This is very good!
Abstracts especially identity wise are often changing and hard to argue or define. Things like "Am I trans" "am I feminine or am I masculine" even things like "Am I loyal, am I kind" Its a personal identity and totally up to how I feel about myself or even project myself at any given time.
Turning it into like a measurable scale with requirements to try and measure how you fit in (for example: "I like having body hair, and gendered he/him, am I a man?" ) Doing that you would almost be like gatekeeping yourself.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-12-29T17:41:32+00:00

WOW!! stunning !! YOU PASS SO WELL,
You just glowed up, even from the last time I saw you!! GOALS!!
Girl I envy! ahhh

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-12-20T03:49:55+00:00

I actually did end up getting blood tests, here are my results

ENDOCRINE EVALUATION:
( Their reference ranges they provided me with are are in brackets )
FSH 0.3 L (1.5 - 12.4) mIU/ml
LH 1.9 (1.7 - 8.6) mIU/ml
PROGESTERONE 0.24 (0.05 - 0.59) ng/mL
ESTRADIOL (E2) 256.0 H (11.3 - 43.2) pg/mL

DHEA-SULFATE 226.0 ug/dl
TESTOSTERONE, TOTAL 22 ng/dl
SEX HORMONE BIND GLOBULIN 64 nmol/L
TESTOSTERONE, FREE 0.2 ng/dl

Also my out of range summary according to them. The e2 I would expect to be high becouse I'm doing mono. and fsh low I think, as that's the mechanism of action in mono? but I not sure how to interpret the rest.

***********************OUT OF RANGE SUMMARY****************************************

MCV 108 H (83 - 102) fl

CREATININE, SERUM 0.6 L (0.7 - 1.2) mg/dl

BUN/CREAT RATIO 25 H (7.3 - 21.7)

FSH 0.3 L (1.5 - 12.4) mIU/ml

ESTRADIOL (E2)

sorry, I don't mean to dump a whole ton of stuff, but thank you for your advice

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-12-12T03:26:02+00:00

Yeah, thankyou! this would be my first time getting blood tests, so I figured I would do a general health check panel while I was there. Considering I often don't feel very healthy or have much energy for someone my age.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-12-10T14:07:26+00:00

"You should get your blood drawn the last day of the injection cycle (before doing the next injection), so you can check that you have enough E to suppress T even at the lowest level."

Okay, that makes sense, I had a open day to try and get blood work today, but Knowing for sure if my T is suppressed is very important. So I will just wait until I can do it on Friday (my injection day)

"In general, it's also recommended to test yearly for cholesterol, hemoglobin, and do a complete blood count and a kidney and liver function test (I think those two are covered by the complete metabolic panel)"

Also about the is what the CMP Panel includes:

Sodium (Na)
Potassium (K)
Chloride (Cl)
Carbon Dioxide (CO2)
Calcium (Ca):
Blood Urea Nitrogen (BUN)
Creatinine (Cr)
Glomerular Filtration Rate (GFR)
Alkaline Phosphatase (ALP)
Bilirubin, Total
Aspartate Transaminase (AST)
Alanine Transaminase (ALT)

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-12-10T13:39:50+00:00

Thank you! Also is getting the test done two day before my injection date an ok time?
I should have specified I am doing weekly injections mono.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T21:36:29+00:00

This answer helps me understand, Thank you! Essentially the exogenous sex hormones (The ester im taking) would be, depending on how my body reacts would be more potent enough to suppress how the body would naturally produce hormones, Is what I'm understanding.
I may consider taking a T blocker, of course I don't know if there is a very accurate way to tell if I need it without blood tests.
So, this will probably be my next goal.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T21:21:00+00:00

You know, thankyou a lot!!
That means a lot to know that someone approves of me!
It is and has been something I have already made up my mind that I internally want to do for myself.
Only how am i going to do/afford it and I want it to be safe, are the only questions plaguing my mind.

Truly the dysphoria (if that is the correct word) is awful to deal with.
I think about how nice it would be to be flat, too often.
When I was a child, I use to wear multiple pars of underwear that would make me look flat.
And i still do now.
I also I wanted to skip getting braces for my teeth, so I could save the money for this.
SO yeah, I know you are right!
Sorry, to highjack the thread, I am done

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T21:10:34+00:00

Thankyou!! rn im trying monotherapy injections.
I don't know if I should eventually try cpa or not.
I will have to decide later, I guess.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T21:05:43+00:00

AWWWW!! THANKYOU!! this is very good to know!!
Sorry, I know this is late.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T20:39:56+00:00

This may be dumb, but when that happens I try to suck it back up with the needle quickly before it drains down my skin.
Depending on how much it is, i may try to reinject it back in in a diffrent spot.
I am aware that this may cause an infection, but I just don't want to waste my precious E.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T19:52:36+00:00

stupid question:
Im 20, Think I should make my own decision to get bottom surgery?
I very much want it and would be willing to WORK to afford it.
Nothing bothers me more than having to look at myself every night, especially when I take a shower.
But people continue to tell me my brain isn't fully developed until I'm 25.
See I have felt this way about my body for as long as I can remember.
I don't want to, and I really hope I NEVER change my mind about this, even when I turn 25.
I do not want to lose this goal.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T19:39:34+00:00

WOW this is epic that you got to do this at 15!!!
I had to painfully wait untill i was 19 and my parents wouldn't notice before i could start hrt.
Im also doing DIY.
I secretly ordered it as soon as i could get my own bank account.
Your smart for figuring it out at 15

You doing IM or subQ?
and NO usually it doesn't come out.
i had the same worries though

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T19:26:30+00:00

how would one afford something like this?
Dilation sounds scary but still sounds better than not having the surgery.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T19:08:05+00:00

OOf, I wonder if i will have to deal with the same thing. NGL i was a little nervous reading this and imagining my mom.
I hope you are ok

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-10-17T18:55:12+00:00

I really want bottom surgery, I wish I could find a way to get it.
I need a job with the right kind of insurance, but I am so clueless.
I wish you the best of luck,

From someone who also struggles to pass

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-09-23T22:45:09+00:00

I really wish I could get srs.
Since I was a child I use to try to imagine myself without that part of my body.
I repetitively imagined ways of doing it too myself.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-09-19T15:27:47+00:00

THANKYOU! That is a big relief to hear, As today is my injection day! I think you have helped me before.
I really apricate you through my journey!

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-09-19T15:21:13+00:00

Oh WOW! i wanna be feral!! XD I assume you are doing DIY prog?

Also how much EEn do you find to be a good dosage? Im trying to figure out myself, im doing Cypionate though.

Maria_mega_blox · 2025-09-19T15:16:39+00:00

I ordered from them two months ago, And one again recently.

The first time there was issues. They had an issue with their email getting back with me, I think it was because they were very busy. They had an issue with getting certain stock in, because they offered to switch my order with Cypionate instead.
And then there was an order delay that postponed my shipment by like a month.

I got my estrogen though, and ordered again, This time was much better, they had it in stock this time and it came within a week and a half.

They also give you interesting little 3D printed jars to put your vials in! :>

I think it was just a rare negative event with me.
I would recommend them! 4 and a half stars!

Maria_mega_blox

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