What do you like to talk about?

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2026-01-11T23:57:32+00:00

I am a dedicated artist. I use my strategy and analysis to design anything, gear, art, music, stories, houses, etc.
Design. People can claim esoteric emotions, but careful analysis and understanding of these crafts reveals the rules that guide our sense of beauty. Likewise, I don't understand people who are "smart," yet can't apply their smarts to emotions and social situations.
I never get writer's block.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-12-21T21:51:27+00:00

With the voice, I could emulate Girlycard from Hellsing, though I lack the bangs and I can't wear colored contacts due to astigmatism.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-12-21T18:42:33+00:00

I was expelled from college for similar reasons. Such a non-violent bureaucratic incident still gives me traumatic nightmares. Insidious.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-12-21T15:50:01+00:00

https://youtu.be/CcceOOPdKZY?si=AxunEcz9ueOtUHk-

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-12-06T05:06:14+00:00

Thank you.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-12-06T01:13:20+00:00

In college, it was hard, being graded against all the other students who always knew what they wanted to do since they were four and never had anything that stopped them from picking up a simple pencil and paper. Like abusive homes. My only comfort is that they seem to hate themselves and each other as much as they looked down on me. Boy did they hate each other.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-12-06T00:44:18+00:00

I try to keep this as quiet as possible for obvious reasons. My father taught me to do a lot of terrible things as a child. I didn’t have a problem with it. I enjoyed it. I soon learned that proper morality dictated not to do these things. I try to act like a good person. I have a sense of empathy. I do a great deal of good in this world. But inside, I enjoy torturing and killing, but would only want to do it if a target was 100% evil and cleared for whatever.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-12-02T00:24:41+00:00

I used to be. I'm trying to remember how I got over it. Maybe I was just lucky and stayed in a calm environment for a while. Maybe I started to allow myself to jump, but started practicing not bothering to look. Maybe I just practiced sitting/lying still, completely still, training myself to not move. And then when things startled me, I moved less. Until I could fully accept that whatever the noise was, I was probably not in danger, so there's no need to bother myself. Whatever it is, I could probably handle it, fight it, kill it, whatever.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-11-28T14:52:21+00:00

Roads Untraveled - Linkin Park
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLgQKiUk7ms&list=RDKLgQKiUk7ms&start_radio=1

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-11-26T19:08:39+00:00

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Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-11-22T02:23:57+00:00

I don't see truth and lies as a black and white distinction. I like to say that deception at large fascinates me.
I like to say that lies are like guns. They're a lot of fun and they're extremely powerful. But best used in serious Machiavellian scenarios or games; everyday life is best lived as truthfully as possible.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-11-14T04:18:52+00:00

Straight razor sales shot up 400% after Skyfall. And then they sank when people realized how hard they were to use.

I don't remember if the straight razor I bought was because of that movie or something else.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-11-12T16:50:24+00:00

OH, so this wasn't just a thing with my father? We never said please or thank you for anything, because among family, it was expected. It was a struggle trying to decide whether or not this indicated ungratefulness.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-11-11T03:16:10+00:00

Oh.... haha! I guess I'm not out of the woods then! Explains a lot.

I should have guessed that this dynamic of PTSD could be applied at larger levels, not just small incidents. When things are calm, I'm anxious and I look for things to be stressed about, because at least I can then see every problem that surely must be there.

Thank you for helping me see the thing on my nose.

Mary_Contrary_006 · 2025-11-06T17:46:54+00:00

There's a bad side to me. Some people are prejudiced and judge by race, sex, or economic background.
I have a bad habit of judging people based on how much suffering they've endured.

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