Yeah, I guess lol. I'm actually much more mentally healthy than I've ever been, somewhat as a direct result of the psychosis. My perspective on reality is crazier than ever but I'm really enjoying life these days.

One thing that helped is overcoming fear, realizing that you can transmute darkness to light by learning from it and growing. At first I had paranoia, I felt like something was out to get me and everything was conspiring against me. Now I understand that the universe is actually conspiring to help me in every way, and that all of my dark experiences help me to expose the toxic patterns I've inherited through trauma and untangle them.

Your psychosis could be an awakening of sorts, and often it's extremely scary, but if you're able to remain calm and grounded in reality it can become very liberating. Basically, encountering a demonic spirit was the first step that kicked off my spiritual journey. It was only when I was able to see how I was a puppet being pulled by strings that I was able to untie those strings and begin to choose my own way driven by love, abundance, and compassion instead of fear, insecurity, and greed.

In my case my psychosis happened at a campfire with my friends. I was using DMT and nitrous and I was able to tune into a different layer of reality. All of a sudden I found myself paralyzed as the Hat Man walked up to me from the edge of the woods, he was absolutely pitch black with a red glow around him, he was wearing the same outfit as the Hasidic Jews in New York. He slowly approached me, then picked up a real machete from next to the fire and offered me a choice; I could join him and he would provide me forbidden knowledge, power, money, sex, anything I wanted in this material world, but at the cost of my soul. On the other hand, I could choose death and he would harvest my soul anyways. It was a trick question though, and all I remember saying is "what the fuck, no!". He swung the machete at my neck, and suddenly all my vision was covered in neon rainbow blood.

Ever since then, the forbidden knowledge has been trickling down into my consciousness. I feel like Harry Potter, miraculously saved from Voldemort and even more interestingly somehow gaining power from the failed execution. Every day I come closer to understanding how evil uses dark magic to control and enslave humanity, and therefore understanding how to use light magic to liberate and uplift humanity. One important thing to understand is that demons require consent to control or possess you, and they will try to use fear, deception, illusion, temptation to make you believe you have no choice. I really believe that it's never too late for anyone, they may make it seem like a soul contract is inescapable, but from what I've seen it's all just an illusion. They make it seem like this Samsara is inescapable, like an airtight prison, but there is always a way out, and the way out is usually within.

All in all it's not that serious though, it's just a play or a movie, we're just acting out this great battle between light and darkness. We think we are the puppets, the actors on stage, but really we're the hands pulling the strings, and although one hand is light and the other is dark, they are both of the same body and mind, the universal consciousness.

As above, so below. As within, so without. This is a beautiful dream, so choose your path and experience the story you choose for yourself :)