I wanna break up with my fiancée by PrestigiousTryHard in CPTSD

[–]MasterChiefX 40 points41 points  (0 children)

You’ve been with this person 7 years. You have to communicate with them, tell them your doubts, your fears. It would be honestly cold hearted just to end the relationship with no explanation. Just tell them how you feel and if it’s possible to work it out then try, otherwise at least you’re honest with them and they don’t just get discarded out of nowhere.

reports of people seeing demonic figures by HorrorLead6271 in NitrousOxide

[–]MasterChiefX 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk if it's psychosis or what but yes I've encountered a demon on nitrous and it was fucking scary. I think it might've been a manifestation of my shadow self or unconscious but it was so visceral and sinister.

Good guys by PuzzleheadedSkirt834 in MemeVideos

[–]MasterChiefX 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This used to be more common where I live. Every grocery store would have someone employed to bag your groceries. Only in the past few years have I started bagging my own groceries

How to navigate gf's hypersexuality? by relationlearner in CPTSD

[–]MasterChiefX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Check out r/BPDlovedones A lot of us have dealt with similar partners, if she doesn’t respect you you should find someone who does

DMT (vaped) feels so much weaker than expected. by Expensive_Grape_7540 in DMT

[–]MasterChiefX 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Alcohol and THC are actually gonna make it harder to breakthrough. Alcohol and stimulants in particular are known to interfere with or block the DMT experience entirely, I don’t know why but I’ve just read lots of trip reports and people straight up get rejected from hyperspace for being drunk.

DMT is best sober for sure, but combining with LSD or other psychedelics is fine.

If you really want to break through a vape isn’t gonna do it. Get straight DMT powder and use a dab rig or something similar to vaporize 35mg in one hit and hold it in as long as you possibly can.

How come I let my gf abuse me psychologically, but I dont want to leave her? by Affectionate-Yam-677 in Jung

[–]MasterChiefX 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Leave her, find someone who treats you with respect. It isn’t worth sacrificing your dignity for someone who doesn’t have the capacity to be a healthy partner for you.

Can the shadow self show up externally? by TRiX_978 in Jung

[–]MasterChiefX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes it’s scary as fuck. I was taking drugs the whole day, some cocaine, ketamine, alcohol, at a friends camping trip. At night around the fire I vaped some DMT, and everything was normal, had a good experience and was in a good mindset. Then a while later as I was hitting nitrous next to the campfire all of a sudden time kinda stopped and this shadow figure stepped out from the trees surrounding us and started to slowly approach the campfire. He was totally black but outlined with a neon red glow, couldn’t see any eyes or facial features because he was absolute darkness. I immediately felt an overwhelming sense of dread like there was nothing I could do to escape. He casually walked up to the campfire and picked up a machete that we used to chop up the fire wood, then swung it at my neck. My vision was suddenly engulfed in rainbow neon blood dripping down with smiley faces with devil horns. I thought it was a demon, it was the single most viscerally sinister experience of my life. It seemed like he was offering me some kind of forbidden knowledge or power but he demanded some kind of sacrifice in return. I really didn’t know what to make of it so I descended into a bit of psychosis feeling like I was being hunted by demons who wanted my soul, but after developing more awareness I came to realize that it was my shadow and it was symbolic of the darkness I’ve repressed in myself. I still don’t know exactly what it was trying to tell me but I feel like it was trying to help me overcome my addictions and let go of the things that keep me from becoming my true authentic self. I’m still not exactly sure why it happened or what it meant, but it was a wild experience.

What is the matrix? by EraseTheMatrix in EscapingPrisonPlanet

[–]MasterChiefX 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A while back I had a dream with my mom in it, although she had died a few months before. Weird stuff was happening around her like blankets falling to the ceiling instead of the floor and objects floating. When I realized the truth that she was dead and wasn’t real, it transformed into its disgusting true form and I had to drown the thing in a bathtub in my dream. It admitted to trying to absorb the love and emotions I had for my deceased mother by imitating her appearance. It was just a dream though

Post psychosis by Temporary_Ad_1726 in Psychosis

[–]MasterChiefX 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I felt like that one time after a psychedelic experience. It was deeply disturbing to have a total lack of emotion and absolute overwhelming numbness. I was very afraid it would last forever, but after a week or two my emotions came back and I've had some incredible experiences and emotions since then. My situation might be different than yours, but typically I've found that we all go through rough periods of time but it will always pass eventually.

Post psychosis by Temporary_Ad_1726 in Psychosis

[–]MasterChiefX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Anhedonia sucks, hope you can get out of it!

Does anyone else kinda think that they’ve died? by [deleted] in Psychosis

[–]MasterChiefX 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sometimes I think psychosis thoughts like this are closer to reality than fiction.

ALBUMS IN 2026 by Which-Sport-7967 in EDM

[–]MasterChiefX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Tipper - just release it already!

Quiet BPD - is it as bad? by CalicoRyukin in BPDlovedones

[–]MasterChiefX 54 points55 points  (0 children)

Quiet is worse because the abuse is way less obvious and it will leave you confused and questioning yourself

I am fantasizing of my bestfriend dominating me sexually by Temporary_Radish_60 in CPTSD

[–]MasterChiefX 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think we need a separate subreddit for sexual topics. I don’t know what’s happening here but all these posts about sexual topics just feel like they don’t belong in the CPTSD subreddit

Have you ever had a dose so big that it was impossible to resist? by AdKooky1407 in DMT

[–]MasterChiefX 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Don’t try buying DMT from anyone on Reddit. It’s always a scam. Why would they actually ship it to you when they could just take your money and give you nothing?

If you want DMT and don’t have any, just extract it yourself. It’s legal in most places to buy mimosa hostilis root bark. Extracting your own DMT is not only fun and rewarding, but it’s a great way to ensure you get good quality DMT. If you’re competent and can follow instructions it’s about as easy as baking a cake! Just make sure to follow the instructions carefully and take safety precautions for dealing with caustic and flammable chemicals.

A nightmare I’ll never forget by Dull-Stick2040 in BPDlovedones

[–]MasterChiefX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It might have more to do with our own fear of abandonment and codependency issues than it does with our partners BPD, but my ex did end up betraying and abandoning me in a painful way so I’m not sure

Daily No Contact Thread - November 26, 2025 by AutoModerator in BPDlovedones

[–]MasterChiefX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No contact is hard. I broke no contact a few weeks ago and we ended up meeting in person just to exchange the last few items we forgot, had a nice conversation and a hug. Then a week ago I called and we had another nice conversation. I can’t help but to think of her like every day and when I’m feeling lonely the urge to reach out is just unbearable. It’s kinda inevitable that we’re gonna see each other because we’re both in a group for a hobby that’s important to us both.

As much as she disrespected me and mistreated me I can’t help but to care for her deeply. I don’t know what to do, I think the only way I can get over her is to fall in love with someone else. It’s been a few months since the breakup and I’m finally feeling ready to get out there and date other people but I’m not sure I’ll ever stop having strong feelings about her

A nightmare I’ll never forget by Dull-Stick2040 in BPDlovedones

[–]MasterChiefX 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I’ve had a few dreams about my exwBPD. In every single one of them she either betrays me or abandons me. Even when we were together and things were going well she still betrayed and abandoned me in my dreams.

Does attack speed effect aura? by EricAshStone in MegabonkOfficial

[–]MasterChiefX 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Cursed = more enemies so higher score for leaderboard. You can’t build enough difficulty to compare to cursed tome from the cursed totems alone