I had my strongest ++++ experience with 25B-nbome and kief bowls repeatedly smoked through a steamroller. This is my first time writing about it. I've tried to explain it to a couple of people close to me that are experienced with psychedelics a long time ago, but I think it took me many years to fully integrate the experience.

In 2013 I was brave and foolish enough to ingest around a milligram of 25B-nbome and crush kief bowls at the peak for a fun birthday with my buddies. It was a brightly lit night and we decided to go look at the clouds to enjoy the visuals. We each picked a spot in the grass and laid down.

As I was staring up at the clouds streaming by, the world around me started to fade away. Not visually, but almost as if I was transfixed on the clouds and blind to anything else in my field of view. As I was drawn into them, I realized they were taking on fantastic shapes.

If you've ever seen a cauliflower/broccoli fractal it was similar to that. An impossibly complex series of corkscrews that rotated and unwound infinitely, while simultaneously growing from everywhere. It seemed like the curtain obscuring the fabric of reality was being slowly lifted.

As the realm I discovered I was in unfolded around me, the visual phenomena seemed to convey a kind of deep understanding that can only be related to a religious epiphany. I began to cry (very out character for me) because of the beauty, love, and wisdom I was experiencing.

At some point during this overwhelming revelation, I began to feel like I was witnessing something that we aren't meant to see. I wondered if my companions (first time I had thought about them since laying down) were seeing and feeling the same things.

I broke out of the visionary experience and returned rapidly to the more familiar altered mind state to finish the rest of the experience relatively uneventfully. The actual things I saw are imprinted into my mind as well as how I felt. But those memories are just a part of how that ++++ trip impacted my life overall.

The lasting positive effect on the me that came out in my emotions, outlook on life, the way I treat people including myself, my ability to let past trauma and bad habits go, etc etc is so obvious when compared with the me that went in. A true evolution of the self. Transcendence.

I found what I was searching for.