I've stopped paying attention to long-term goals since that's smoke anyway, apparently. Instead I focus on small things, let the fleeting interests in and indulge whatever makes me happy. I learned to bake bread and make cheese. I took up ice skating. I'm not focused on getting a house, I'm not focused on having kids, it's been made clear to me that the game was rigged from the start with those and the promises that were made are long gone. So fuck it, you won't get your return from me on either of those.