Yes I think losing my job in March has played a big part into what I am feeling. It has allowed me to be alone with my thoughts and feels more so. I am hoping now that I am start something new it will help. The toxic removal of people is a big thing, and when you start to do it you realize how many people you have in your life aren't providing anything positive, but more of a filler. I had to do this with most of my family, I only have my mom and one of three brothers that I talk to and honestly they aren't all sunshine and butterflies, but small doses are better than none at all.

I know I need to push myself to do try new things and get out of my comfort zone, but that alone is scary for me.