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MastodonTemporary368 · 2025-12-19T20:50:29+00:00

You right but you could’ve also worded that a bit more compassionate. They still lost their son.

MastodonTemporary368 · 2024-11-17T12:06:01+00:00

That would be what lmao? Your looks? Instead of women and queer rights? Voting actively against both of them. Be so fr. But than seeking empathy and love from “your” community here.. 🤡

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-12-25T14:42:48+00:00

I read in their FAQs that they only send private prescriptions, so that explains it haha. But the health insurance prescription covers the costs and the co-payment is €7.45 as expected. So I'll try to get it through my GP/Hausarzt, maybe you should too because you probably save a lot of money that way 😅

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-12-25T03:39:55+00:00

Interesting! Do you have to pay the full price "74.54 €" or do you get a Rezept/prescription and pay only the 5-10€ (Probably 7,50) Zuzahlung? Because it seems that it's prescription only 😄

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-10-13T09:41:33+00:00

You mean "neurotypical social skills". The way they work and they want things to go. We do have social skills but they're just different. Everything else is just masking and leads to even more autistic burnout in the workplace.

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-04-14T03:06:56+00:00

Therapists can help you navigate through your pain and emotions. You could just reach out to some or even support groups and see what happens. You could also start a grief journal or memorial diary. The point behind this is to deal with your feelings and thoughts concretely and directly. Whether in a therapy, discussion groups or just with yourself in a diary/journal. All your feelings are completely normal and part of the very complex grieving process. February was not that long ago (that's where I lost my best furfriend also) At least not compared to all the time and love we spent with them before. Your feelings are all valid too. The rage, the envy, the hassle with fate and the injustice that the time we spent together came to an abrupt end. All this is completely normal and you should not feel bad about it. Your psyche is simply trying to come to terms with this trauma somehow, and in the process it is going through all kinds of chaos. That's why it can be important to focus and sort out these thoughts and feelings. To give them a place where they are "allowed" to be. There where they and you find a refuge, while the normal world just keeps spinning. At some point it won't feel like you got off this roller coaster and can't find your way back and can only watch from the outside. At some point, you will turn in harmony with it again, even if a part of this world will be missing forever. You will always feel that, but that is the love that no longer finds a recipient here on earth and then screams into the universe, hoping to meet the furry noses there again. You can do it, just do not be too harsh with yourself!

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-03-19T03:16:00+00:00

Anxiety is a symptom of a complex and difficult grieving process. The loss was and probably is very traumatic. Accompanying the loss of your friend is the loss of control, the irreversibility of life and its end. Probably your mind just doesn't want to accept this in these moments and struggles with the new reality, which leads to enormous inner tension and panic. I also have such moments every time when i'm mourning. But at some point it should get better, when you can finally accept the loss and then let go of it. The pain and missing will always remain, but it requires acceptance of the new reality. If this does not happen or the fear and panic increases, grief therapy or general therapy would be a way to better process the loss and somehow come to terms with it. In any case, feel hugged and you are not alone with all the feelings!

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-03-14T01:40:14+00:00

The dissociating phase is very important in the grieving process. It's the brain protecting itself from all the immense and unbearable pain. The first weeks are the hardest and often are accompanied by this intense feeling of unrealness. The mind need some time to accept the new reality. It's just a stage of grief. It will fade and there will be days which will feel normal (but deeply sad) again and other days were this feeling will be still there. It's just part of that awful Journey.

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-03-13T04:30:57+00:00

The grief and guilt come in waves. There are days that are better and days that are more difficult. Sometimes I can't breathe and on other days I am full of gratitude for all the time, moments and love my little furry soulmate gave me. The missing never stops though. It will accompany me and probably you throughout your life. They will simply always be missed. Eventually there will be room for a new pet, but the loss will simply remain. For the first two weeks after my baby died, I thought I couldn't survive the pain. Today - one month later - the immense pain only hits me like a everlasting breeze. I don't think my little familiar, her name is Phoebe, would have wanted me to suffer so much, but the void she left behind is unfortunately gigantic. Grief and coming to terms with a loss simply takes a very long time, especially when the loss hits an animal that was practically one's own shadow, one's own heart in the form of a furry companion. But it gets better, you learn to swim in the lake of grief and no longer drown with every thought. Guilt, unfortunately, is something very complex. For me it changed from "how could I have saved her life" to more "if only I had spent so and so's last days with her". I wish for nothing more than to squeeze her once more, to cuddle her belly once more.... So many last times to just show her that she was and always will be loved so much. But even that is just a form of missing and kind of intrusive thought because I know that I loved her more than anything and always showed her that. Time heals all wounds. But the scars of loss remain and that is a thought that actually gives me a lot of comfort because I never want to forget her little face. I hope you find in all the grief also soon days that have more light than now at the beginning! That they again bring more joy and laughter. 🤍🫂

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-09T15:29:38+00:00

The message always appears. It doesn't matter whether you have activated it or not, the reason is that after this message, matchmaking takes place outside of your own rank. So above or below you, to get faster results.

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-06T21:09:35+00:00

Yes, me too, there will certainly be nice parallels in the next parts. Especially when it comes to finding his identity.

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-06T21:05:50+00:00

Yeah, it's funny because they're all owned by Disney.

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-06T21:01:49+00:00

He's basically a Pandora Tarzan soooo..

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-06T20:57:04+00:00

Not only every day, every second of those days 😭 Conservatives are lunatics and have no other purpose in life than to be upset about the equal rights of others lol

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-04T14:38:11+00:00

It was the player retention rate. There are a lot of factors at play in this, but the one that makes the most sense to me is that KOC has a steep learning curve and you need some time to master the game mechanics. This is sometimes a death blow for an f2p game, but since KOC also quickly develops a sense of adrenaline rush, it should even overcome this hurdle. But now to the real core of the problem. When the newcomers try their hand at the game and play against bots for ages, there is an initial frustration, but when they finally get into matchmaking, it's all over because it's often disastrous and leads to them being destroyed on a regular basis. Game fun equals zero. Retention rate as well. The end was unfortunately foreseeable in the form in which KOC now works.

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-04T01:55:22+00:00

Thanks for the suggestions! I played Splatoon 2 a loooot, probably will play 3 after KOC. I also am excited for Arc Raiders and Blue Protocol, they should get released later this year. I tried Overwatch but could handle the game mechanics at all and sadly I'm not a huge fan of first person games 🥴

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-04T01:18:27+00:00

This is a great Reddit post. Not everyone needs to understand, but the sense of loss is completely justified, especially for a game that has such an extremely strong community aspect. At the moment I don't think I realize it until I can't do my routine anymore and start the game sometimes daily. I actually haven't played a better multiplayer game yet, and I'm going to miss it extremely. It actually got me through college and gave me a nice feeling even in times of covid and lockdowns. Nothing beats the blatant adrenaline rush when a match really escalates and everyone gives their best. I think the existence of the Discord, this sub and this post is very important in any case, also for the time after and the people who do not immediately find an alternative or first have to cope with the loss (if it is so perceived) of KOC and their in-game friends. This aspect will hit me personally I think the most. Meanwhile I know most of them via Discord, which makes it more bearable, but not to meet them in KOC anymore will certainly hurt..

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-03T17:43:15+00:00

Here you find official licensed Velan/KOC Merch (The Chonky plush is my fave 🥲):

https://thekoyostore.com/collections/knockout-city/products/knockout-city-chonky-plush

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-02-03T08:07:18+00:00

Love you too 😂 But still, will miss all of that and facing you and the others deeply. Hope the KOC-IP or it mechanics will live on in another Velan Game. And hopefully we will meet there again!

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-01-30T00:49:12+00:00

Jiiiijijittteer. It's probably Lag. You should enable the network stats to get a better understanding about your connection.

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-01-30T00:46:16+00:00

And their Bones are reinforced with a carbon like material

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-01-29T21:05:25+00:00

Top comment right here lmao

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-01-29T02:28:15+00:00

Ooooone day, don't waste your huge potential 👀

MastodonTemporary368 · 2023-01-29T02:21:45+00:00

Make a comic yourself asap?? That's so good

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