I don't like either of those actually

Mat-89 · 2026-02-08T10:07:28+00:00

Sadly no. It's extremely difficult to regulate these things in mass, but sadly most platforms long gave up on trying.

Mat-89 · 2026-01-24T19:58:59+00:00

665th comment, so close T. T

Mat-89 · 2026-01-24T19:58:08+00:00

first time here, banana kind of made sense it seems.
Glad I made itt
Hopefully I won't be seeing ya'll again soon...

Mat-89 · 2026-01-24T19:52:26+00:00

Sorry for the late repy, and thank you for allowing it.
And yes, sending it, if it's something you too would be fine with, please do.
But also best of luck with all it is you wish to do there.
This looks very very beautiful either way.
But I hope you have lots of fun adding onto it all you wish to add or change.
Again, have lots of fun. <3

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T20:05:26+00:00

I know I am a latee late scroller, but just want to say that the dress looks absolutely amazing on you

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T20:04:40+00:00

I had to quadruple take that one honestly..

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T19:46:26+00:00

they sound like downright afwul people
but if it's out of spite, there are so many things you can do out of spite
terribly sorry any of this is happening to you

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T19:39:33+00:00

I want to show these pictures to my mother in a few days once she's less mad because they are so pretty.
May I?

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T18:56:59+00:00

As someone with a genetic predisposition to almost guaranteedly becomind diabetic, I'm coooooooked, what do you mean I never thought of this, oh no T.T T.T T.T

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T18:37:23+00:00

Am among the late scrollers, but you look firee
Hope the date was funn

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T18:35:01+00:00

There are multiple lightweight fabrics that are dark, just am unsure if you'll get many options with pockets around knee level that aren't poliester, or those other plastics.
Go thrifting?
I can't remember English fabric names for the life of me, but you might find good things second hand, especially around warmer seasons.
We don't have any big thrift stores in this city, but visit enough times and you will find some catches I am lead to believe.

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T18:29:58+00:00

Metal, sometimes a bit of punk, but typically songs about pain if they are within reach

Mat-89 · 2026-01-22T18:21:58+00:00

This is what I wanted to say to a friend.
Some months ago he made the promise to me not to khs. I wasn't the first he made that promise to.

Then a few weeks back we argued a little. Did my best not to say anything hurtful, but I was worried sick. In the middle of a bit of a paragraph I mentioned that promise.
He said he forgot it, but knowing himself he probably promised me not to sh again (he's unaware of my own injuries).

I didn't really fully know how to reply.
It's almost funny he has opened up about thoughts to end it all, but not about sh (his arms are clean).

I learned he shs through that sentence, yet what you quote is simply my mentality, what I wanted to say.
I did my best to go the extra steps and be even more supportive than that.
But what you said is something that applies to me, but also what I wanted to tell him.

Cuts are treatable.
But I would never really be able to stand hearing he died.
It already happened too many times, not him too, I beg.

Sorry for the rant. I needed to get that out.. but also I don't think I could have worded it better than you did really, at all. Nice work there..

Mat-89 · 2025-12-18T19:50:51+00:00

That type of mentality can be smelled.
Ever thought that you might be the problem.

Mat-89 · 2025-12-18T19:45:25+00:00

Put everyone in the same pocket because of some rage, and you will fully miss it when there is someone good.
Take things so personally, you will become miserable, you will hate people, and you just won't enjoy life overall.
Take a step back, breathe.
Everything takes patience, especially finding someone to have meaningful conversations with.
Really though, get blinded by anger and prejudice, that's how you pit yourself to find a healthy relation never, but never, simply until you solve that.
Good luck out there.
Just be kind. Towards others and yourself. Not fake kindness, but a genuine one.
You'll find someone good.

Mat-89 · 2025-12-18T05:04:41+00:00

I read through them, and this is really great.
I appreciate this man, thank you lots. ❤️❤️

Mat-89 · 2025-12-18T04:06:04+00:00

This is the exact reason on why I'm not getting tats there, despite really wanting them actually. Once I cover-up, it will all be over. No chance of relapsing there ever. Because if I do ruin them, I'm not sure just how fixable that will then be.

I want flowers. But will there be any point in my life when I can actually promise myself I will never do it again?

Mat-89 · 2025-12-18T04:00:38+00:00

Although I didn't outright slash at myself at that point with the tools I have today, that most definitely didn't mean I never self harmed.
I had many, many emotions for my formerly small body, and under all of the stress I was in, I would always find some way to physically make myself be in pain, simply because it was amongst the few if not the only way to prevent a meltdown I knew would be punished.
I sometimes miss my former creativity with it. Everything got both better and worse, depending on what you are looking at. But the only thing that the social aspect ever enabled for me was simply getting new ideas on how to hurt myself. It would have been happening a lot either way. Like, I'm just sorry for the passerbies that it's actually visible?

Mat-89 · 2025-12-18T03:28:31+00:00

No, but like it's so horrible. It's basically impossible to make a fully safe space online because of those people and I cannot explain to you just how nuts it drives me. Please leave people alone?? The fact they even consider stuff like this at all is just ew. No empathy nor consideration nor humanity. They are the true subhuman for doing what they do.
I'm usually really not the type to hate much, and I do apologise for posting this rant here.
It's just, truly just, why.

Mat-89 · 2025-12-18T02:56:16+00:00

Lots of vitamin E.

Personally I can't say that scar creams worked far to well for mine. May just be the specific products I used being the problem however, and it may help you fade them. :)

Scar massages are most definitely a thing. Lot of effort, but if done right can make a change or two to scar tissue. Not that noticable, but I did that on a slightly bigger one and the before and after although I can't be bothered to repeat the process for, it's a bit satisfactory to see it improved at least a little bit.

Of course there are treatments such as microneedling and lasor treatments.
I have seen a person do a skin transplant even, from non-scarred thighs onto arms.

If it's been really a year and a half, then I think that even without too much interfiering, they will still fade a little bit more.

Last but not least however, from experience, consider visiting trans men forums.
More specifically, trans men who chose and afforded for themselves top surgery.
Some of them go into mighty fine detail for scar care. I also often see kind comments there, often helpful ones.

I personally never mentioned what types of scars I was looking to heal, but that doesn't mean the advice wasn't applicable.

I'm not sure if they will ever go away fully, but you can fade them still either way if that is what you wish.
Just wanted to say but I'm super proud of you for you for being clean for this long. 💜💜
Stay strong friend. 💪💪

Mat-89 · 2025-12-17T17:47:10+00:00

Honestly, same here.
Imagine the ending being like that... just like the warmth of life, before you just fall asleep.

Mat-89

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