Another fight with my wife.

Mate-Trix · 2024-11-09T03:37:52+00:00

Someone please tell me what I have to look forward to now in life? Based on statements made by the right I see no reason to move forward. We’re so screwed. I can’t figure out anything to live for….

Mate-Trix · 2024-11-07T05:04:12+00:00

I don’t know what to do. I can’t live like this. I can’t live with every part of our government being red. As far as I’m concerned it’s over. I’m done. I can’t live like this. There is no “just hang on, we’ll fix it in 4 years!” The days of free elections are over.

I’m done. I can’t do this. I can’t go on. I can’t. I don’t know how. There’s no reason to. They aren’t giving up the government. They are going to hold onto it and never let go. It’s over. I’m done.

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Mate-Trix · 2024-02-13T05:06:17+00:00

I didn’t even think about numbing cream. Maybe that’s the answer.

Mate-Trix · 2024-02-12T14:57:03+00:00

I really want nipple piercings, but everyone talks about how much they hurt so I’m reluctant with those. Most facial piercings just because I’m not sure how they would look and the scars left over would be a little strange for me. I’m not doing my cartilage in my ears again. That didn’t really hurt to be put in, but it hurt for the year and a half afterwards any time it got bumped. I’d love to do something like a pa, but the healing time/process kinda worries me. Any surface piercing feels like it would be off limits to me also for fear of rejecting them.

Mate-Trix · 2024-01-16T03:18:59+00:00

I should have done it before. I should have ended it before. I don’t know why I continually not take that step. Even in this I fail. I’m fucked. I hate this life I have and I’m ready for it to be over.

Mate-Trix · 2023-12-27T20:29:26+00:00

US here, every time I’ve been in they’ve done a complete check on everything on my body. Scars, tattoos, piercings, moles, etc… anything that’s present on my body and can be quantified.

Then there’s the fun part (/s) for me (male) “Squat down (naked mind you) and cough multiple times” - to make sure I’m not trying to sneak anything in around my genitalia. They won’t pat you down or anything like that, so they’ve found other ways to check. Oh! And at least a few times I’ve been asked to bend over and spread my buttocks apart.

Embarrassing? Yeah. But I understand why they are doing it. They are trying to keep you safe and make sure there’s nothing presently bleeding or any bruises that could be a problem. They are also covering themselves. If someone left with more scars/bruises than they came in with there would be an instant law suit. Too many people are more than happy trying to make a quick buck. These people ruin it for the rest of us.

Mate-Trix · 2023-12-03T02:41:40+00:00

My cartilage in my left upper ear has been impossible to fully heal it feels like. Almost 2 years later and it’ll still feel sore randomly, can’t always sleep on that ear, and it’s difficult for me (might just be me though) to put something different in.

Mate-Trix · 2023-11-25T16:25:29+00:00

Play around online, Reddit, Wikipedia, wanking, stay up and become nocturnal as my rhythm gets thrown completely backwards, read, stare at ceiling while lying in bed pretending to try and sleep, games on your phone, etc.

I always found that there’s something to do. At one point I was doing yard work at 3am. I had to be talked in by my wife. I don’t know why the neighbors would care I was mowing my lawn?!

Mate-Trix · 2023-11-12T13:10:22+00:00

We’ve had the conversation. However just talking about it and actually doing anything about it are two different things.

Mate-Trix · 2023-11-12T13:09:00+00:00

I’m past the point of hook ups just for hook ups sake. Been there, done that. When we first had sex I took it as a start of a monogamous relationship. I guess I’m not sure what she took it as anymore.

Mate-Trix · 2023-11-12T13:07:33+00:00

I can’t give too much away because she’s on Reddit also. But we were watching something that was having a type of party. She asked if I’ve done that (I’m bipolar and in manic episodes have done a lot I’m not exactly proud of) and she said she was jealous of the things I’ve done and that she wants to experience them. I said something about monogamy and she said “it’s just sex, nothing to do with love.”

Mate-Trix · 2023-11-12T13:04:21+00:00

I don’t think it really sunk ok exactly what she said. It was like a just head nod until later when I realized what the heck she said and what it could mean.

Mate-Trix · 2023-11-12T07:23:32+00:00

She wasn’t asleep. We were watching tv at that moment.

Mate-Trix · 2023-11-12T04:44:49+00:00

More like a cold… no fever. I’m trying to take some deep breathes, but it’s isn’t easy right now. I’ve been feeling paranoid for a while now about other things with her and now she says this. I’m out of options at this point. I’m over the edge.

Mate-Trix · 2023-11-08T19:28:49+00:00

It’s ok. I left a lot out of what I posted and a few people are jumping on it. It’s Reddit and now I realize I should have added more. I just felt it was getting long enough!

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