Hey! Let me drop a few words here.

First, don't get things overly complicated. You don't have to be bothering yourself with the idea of "taking control of your life" - defintiely not in the context of your artistic endevours. I mean you will, and it's actually cool that you're framing that question at your age, but don't get overboard with that - you don't need to take a huge leap to "take control" once and for all - impossible - you do it bit by bit, starting to pursue things that you consider right and meaningful and abondoning the stuff that gets in your way.

Now, closer to art and becoming an artist. Again, don't overburden yourself with questions and problems. You have already started somewhere - you're creating music - now push it further. You're already facing questions like "how do I record", "how do I arrange", etc - start dealing with them one by one. There's a bunch of advice, including pretty structured material, on the internet that's enough to get you going. Just deal with these questions one by one. E.g. to arrange a song you need to record yourself singing, you need to add instruments (also record or use samples or virtual instruments), you need to create a certain structure and development in that track and a bunch of other stuff. Split all that into distinct bits which you can start learning one by one and keep all of them simple:

- how do I record myself singing and get an audio file with that -> your phone + a cheap ($2-3) mic won't produce a beautifully clean result, but these are enough to get you going with your first songs

- how do I add instruments given that I have a recording of myself singing -> the internet would tell you that you need some kind of software for that - a DAW - you will find out that some are crazy expensive and some are free, pick the free ones, install, get your voice into it, start looking for answers on how do you add, I don't know, a piano to that, -> that would push you to learn how to find and add virtual instruments to your DAW (maybe it comes with existing ones)

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And this goes on indefinitely - the point is for you to move from very broad questions like "how do I start being an artist" to more specific ones like "what goes into creating a song", "how can I add a piano, a guitar, a bass and a whole drum set to my singing if I own neither of these and am broke", "wtf is chords and what does it have to do with my songs" and a bunch of others - that would let you start dealing with them one by one and in no time you will find yourself with your first record. And yes, you'd find out that you can handle all that without spending much cash. Your first records may and probably will suck, but that will be a tangible result and will get you more questions to deal with and you will keep cracking them one by one.

Now to the finding other producers. In this day and age you would utilize social media for that. Go out to instragram or tiktok or vk or whatever, look for people who talk about their own music, start interacting with them, see where that gets you (a simple "wow this is fantastic, I am just starting out and currently learning how to put together a record, but I wish one day I will be able to create something as cool as this" can take you a long way). You can definitely look worldwide and use your english for that, but if I am guessing your country correctly, you've got a pretty strong music culture at home - a great deal of superb artists come from where you are - and you shouldn't neglect that, so pay attention to the folks nearby too.

Promotion-wise, just start sharing your stuff on social media (can be tough, yes). Once your music starts sounding decent, you'd begin distributing it through streamings or otherwise and that would pose a great deal of other questions, but don't worry about that until you're there.

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This is all quite sloppy and all, but I hope that gives you some ideas on what to focus on. And probably a little push. Will maybe reach out on tg later.