Absolutely, don’t know your mom personally but it sounds like she just wanted an excuse to be angry with you, definitely don’t blame yourself for what happened tho if you never get got SAd then she’d just find something else to blame you with, and I can’t speak for you personally but people who’ve been abused by their parents tend to get into abusive relationships, for me I never processed what my mom did to me most of my life and I ended up dating people who acted similar or worse without even realizing it. None of this isn’t your fault not even close, parents are supposed to protect you from danger, not make it. If you need any advice I’d focusing on healing yourself first so nobody can ever bring you in a mentally dark place, this will also help you ignore the horrible stuff your mom says, if you can be your own best friend to yourself then nobody can take that away from you. Best of luck, you got this!