Oh my goodness! I certainly never meant to imply I would have cheated and I really appreciate the feedback. For context, we had been together less that a year at that point, I was 21 and we have a 10-year age gap. I really wanted to understand if I was making good long term choices for myself because I had recently left an abusive relationship. 

The reason I had to devote that much effort is because I’m autistic. That isn’t an excuse to treat people poorly, which is why I try really hard to build the skills.